Tagged

A-Attached or Single? Attached going into single
B-Best Friend? Chee Huey, Kaya, Camin, Rene and Audrey
C-Cake or pie? Cake
D-Day of choice? Friday
E-Essential item? Computer
F-Favorite color? Black and white
G-Gummy bears or Worms? Gummy bears
H-Home - Have no idea
I-Indulgence - Shopping
J-June or July? June
K-Kids? None
L-Life is not complete without - My family
M-Marriage date - Find me a boyfriend first
N-Number of magazine subscriptions? None
O-Orange or apple? Oranges
P-Phobias? insects
Q-Quotes? im crazy
R-Reason to smile? To overcome sadness
S-Season of choice? Winter
T-Tag 5 people – Audrey, KAHS, Wei Yang, Shyan and Adrian
U-Unknown facts about me - I'm sensitive despite the cheerfulness of me
V-Vegetables? Love it
W-Worst habit? i laughed too loud
X-X-ray or Ultrasound? What for???
Y-Your favorite foods? Rice
Z-Zodiac sign - Taurus

100 Truths about me

001. Real name → Carolyn Foong Chee Ak Fredrick
002. Nickname(s)→ Carol, Lyn (its so simple)
003. Zodiac sign → Taurus
005. Male or female → Female duh??
006. Elementary → All Saints Taiping kindergarten
007. Middle School →SRK (P) Treacher Methodist Taiping and SRK Sinaran Budi Rawang
008. High School → SMK Rawang (lame name of a school...)
009. College School → College Tunku Abdul Rahman
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → average
012. Loud or Quiet → loud.. all the time
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Can be both?
015. Health freak → Totally
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → So far no
055. Waiting for → My white horse prince

FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ Yes
059. Want to get married? → then why i want to have kids for?
060. Careers in mind → HoteLIAR

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Both
074. Sensitive or loud→ Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → None

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → neither two coz i dont wear one
081. Ran away from home → Nope
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Nope
083. Killed somebody → Nope
084. Broken someone's heart → hardly find someone to broke their heart
085. Been arrested → Nope
087. Cried when someone died → Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Sometimes
090. Miracles → Yes
091. Love at first sight → Yes
092. Heaven → Yes
093. Santa Claus → Yes
094 Tooth Fairy → no
095. Kiss on the first date→ dont even got my first date

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → ...
099. Do you believe in God → Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 5 people.

Dissapointed

Haiz.. No words to describe my feeling right now.. And i not gonna elaborate more about this.. i just feel so disappointed.. because of this, I lost my mood, my appetite and my smile.. just feel soooooooooo disappointed.... And its gonna takes me a while to recuperate.. And there is only one way to make me recuperate.. Sadness seems to be the hardest words to describe..

There is always sunshine after rain..

My mood is getting better now.. After a few days of depression my mood is getting better thanks to the spring cleaning that me and my dad have done.. Suddenly felt want to clean the whole house.. Its been 2 years since we done a spring cleaning.. After the death of my mom.. So many things we found out during the spring cleaning.. I discovered some of my mom sewing stuff that has been kept for 10 years.. My goodness.. is so antique.. I reminds me of my mom.. I miss her so much.. Unfortunately, none of us can sew better, so dad decided to throw it away.. My heart ache when i saw dad throw the things i kept to remember my mom.. I miss mom so much... i really miss her..

Btw, he called... and that is our conversation:

Him: Hello.. Hey.. sorry i didnt pick up ur calls the last few days...
Me: Its ok..
Him: sorry yah.. I've been really busy.. I didnt even bring my phone to work..
Me: Its ok..
Him: come on.. dont be like this.. i've said sorry..
Me: and i accepted ur apology.. I know u've been busy.. but.. its ok..
Him: ok... i'll call your back later when you got your tempered down...
me: okay... (hung up phone)

Am i too harsh? I mean he's already apologized, but i am being mean to him..

My life sucks...

Never in my life I've felt this great pressure.. My whole mind is blank now.. I really dont know what to do.. I felt so clueless.. Guess im suffering slight depression?? I am jobless right now, and that adds more of my depression.. And he is not picking up any of my calls nor replying my message means its the end of us.. That adding up more of my depression.. Gooshh.... I know i shouldnt have felt this depression, but i cant help it.. I just feel sad.. I even try to eat sweet things to lighten up my mood.. Guess it doesnt help at all.. End of relationship with him is no big deal for me, but hello.. At least call me and give me your reason.. EXPLANATION.. Jesus Christ, what makes me sad is not ending the relationship, its because im desperately looking for job.. I wanna make my own big bucks.. i wanna make my own BIG BUCKS!!!
Money, fortune, please come to me!!!!!! arrgghh..... Im tearing up my heart now..

I'm a total failure..

Well, about the job that i went for interview.. I dont know whether is a yes or no.. They ask me to give it a thought since transportation is my problem.. Goosshh.. Everything just dont goes right for me this week.. If only i know its going to be like that, i would have told my manager that i would extend.. Gooshh.. I just hate life after school... i wanna go to school.. Gooshh... I hate my life.. Its so sucks now.. Where the heck am i going to look for job??? Shit.. Bitch... F**k.. hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Everything

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Lost my precious stuff..

Geezz.. Shit... Damn it.. Fuck it.. Darn it.. Those who steals my RM59 Quicksilver slippers, i curse them to have nightmares every night.. Shit.... Why do they wanna steal my slippers?? The slippers is so precious for me.. Its has a lot of memories to me... Goosshh... I hate it.. aarrgghh.. Nothing seems to go right for me this few days..

Its too late....

Gooosshh... One of my ex colleagues is resigning.. So she ask me to apply again for club med.. GOD.. she should have tell me earlier.. But now, everything is too late.. Im going for my interview tomorrow and i at least have to wait a year for that.. Gosshh.. Why dont she tell me earlier??? OOhh.. Im so pissed off.. Gooossshhhh!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted so much to work in club med.. aaaaarrrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 post in a day?? why not??

Gosshh.. i must really felt bored.. i post 2 entry in a day.. Well, actually i am bored.. Im on my maximum level of boredom.. Dont try to piss me off or i might ended up killing someone.. hehe.. Just kidding.. Since coming back from Kuantan, all i have been doing in this one whole week at home, sitting my butt off in front of the computer and sleep.. (redemption for not having enough sleep while working in Club Med).. But i think i have enough sleep.. Basically now my thoughts have been wandering far.. I had no idea what will happen in the future nor I'm doing anything to plan for my future.. I'm just so clueless..

And actually, I've got a job interview coming Tuesday, and although the job is not the job I've dream of, at least i had to give my best.. I do not want to disappoint my family who wanted me to work in the company.. And the contract with the company only takes about a year so i think why not i just give a try?? Perhaps after that i can go back to the job i wanted..

As for now, i really miss all my college mate.. I wonder how are they now?? Its an amazing thing that we still care about each other to think that we havent seen each almost half year..

I am 20 years old now.. As for some other people, perhaps they thought they are still young.. but for me, 20 is like the age i've should have achieved something, but still, im still wandering around looking for a rightful job to me.. What the heck am i waiting for?? But im not the type who waits to get married... Heck!!! I dont even had a boyfriend!!! Am i single? Yes. Am i available? Yes. Am i desperate? ermm.. 50% perhaps.. But for now, i want to concentrate to earn my big bucks.. I wanna get the thing that i can buy with my own money.. hahahahaha...

Till the end of us..

Should i just end it?? Because i dont think it will work.. Although he is special... But i feel a burden..Should i just give him up.. We, who have different mindset, different thoughts and different cultural, could we ended up being together?? He is loveable, he is cute, he is caring and he is charming..But i just felt that something is torn between us.. Should i give up? Or i should fight for this relationship together with him?? Because everything doesnt seems so right...



Should i give him up?? Super Junior CHO KYUHYUN....hahahahaha...........

Doing something beyond my will..

Im going for an interview this Tuesday.. But i not happy with it. It is because, its a job that i dislike.. I am grateful for the person who offers me this job.. And i even feel thankful.. But its just the job is not in my interest.. Its my father wish that i work in the company... The job just doesn't suits my style.. My style if job is freestyle type.. For example, working in club med.. hehehe.. I really miss working in club med.. after all, my contact with the company only for a year.. maybe after that i will apply to club med again.. I want to work on something that i like.. Club Med.. wait for me!!!!!!!!!!

Its just only second day..

Geezz... Its just only second day, but i have missed the people and the lifestyle in club med already.. Goosshh... I truly miss them all... There is one i miss the most.. He is really someone special.. Glad i know him.. I miss the lifestyle too... Every morning woke up at 8am, preparing to go to work at 8.40am then at 9, all the children arrive and parents start to sign them in.. At 9.30am we brought them to the archery field and then the golf, bungee bounce and trapeze.. Everything finish at 11am.. At 11am, either we brought them to the pool or we bring them to a nature adventure.. After that at 12pm, its lunch time.. Its my most favourite time.. After ensuring all the children gets their food, its my time to get my food.. Goosshh.. I really miss the all-you-can-eat buffet.. And my favourite food to eat everyday is 'jab chae' and tempura.. Well, not to miss as well, chinese food.. Thanks to Ah Kang for preparing such a nice chinese food. Hope he succeed to work in Japan.. Well, after lunch finish at 1pm, time to go back to the Kids Club and have a rest before we proceed to the beach at 2pm..

Beach time is about 2pm to 3 pm.. Then, its pool time again.. pool time is about 3 till 3.30.. Then go back to Kids Club to get change, and its snack time... My favourite time as well.. Honey stars plus coco crunch add with chocolate nuttela and some milk.. Voila!!!! Yummy yummy my own recipe.. hahaha.. My colleague Charles, everytime he sees that, he would said " Are you in stress??" Because i ate too much sweet things.. lol... Okay, after that. its family event time.. And everything finishes at 5.30pm.. Thats only the end for the kids club time.. At night we still have to work.. after dinner finishes at 8, its another activities for the mini club time.. And after that, at 9, its time for party.... Or known Crazy Sign in Club Med, where all GO's will started off the dancing, and then dragging all the guest along to dance with us.. After the dance party finish at 9.30pm, its time to invite all guest to go theathre to watch performance.. after performance, its party time.. wow.. Although we seems partying like crazy, but actually is part of our job.. Our job is to create the ambience so that the guest would join together.. Almost everynite we partying until 1, and at 1am we started to set up the theme for tomorow..

I really miss the life in Club Med, although its tiring, but its fun.. I miss the lifestyle of wearing clothes according to themes, the late night partying, dancing crazilly with other colleagues, huh.. Its just a life i cant forget.. I even the miss cranberry soda that i drink almost 8 cups a day.. (no wonder i get cough..) Well, i really miss the life... I hope i can go back to club med..

Back with new experiences @ Club Med..

I'm back.. I've been away working in Club Med in Kuantan.. It was really a a great experience to me.. I even miss Club Med now.. Although it was tiring working in Club Med, but it was fun working there. At first i thought it would be very stressful working at there as all the colleagues are from other countries.. Different type of nationality.. But, after a few days there, i no longer feel the stressfulness.. In fact, it was fun working there.. All the colleagues are warm and friendly.. I love working in Mini Club Med..

Well, first of all what is Mini Club Med?? Mini Club Med, is club for children age 2 to 10.. Our job is to take care of the children while their parents went to find their own leisure. We bring the children to play different types of activities such as archery, golfing, trapeze, bungee bounce, swimming, sailing, kayaking and the list goes on.. If u were my friends, you can see how tanned am i now.. ( results from bringing children to beach everyday..)

So, that activities continues everyday for 2 consecutive weeks.. I've met a lot of cute children from all over the world. France, Japan, Korea, Mauritius and etc.. Omg.. They are so totally cute.. Sometimes there are children whom, i feel like wanted to slapped them.. My gosh.. So irritating that type of children..

Okay, enough about the children.. Lets talk about the colleagues.. i have about 11 wonderful colleagues.. Sentha from Indonesia, my mini club manager.. Ken, from Mauritius Island, my mini club assistant manager, Gloria from Indonesia, mini club GO, Marco, from Taiwan also a mini club GO, Kanako from Japan, Kids Club GO, Charles from Korea, Kids Club GO, Ee Von from Malaysia, Kids Club GO, Naoko from Japan, Petite Club GO, Jasmine, from Malaysia, petite club GO, Kumiko from Malaysia, mini club GO, Hon from Malaysia, Mini Club GO as well.. While me, im in the Kids Club.. They are the most wonderful colleagues i ever worked with.

Now lets talk about other GO's from other department that i know. First, Itsuki from Japan.. He is a bartender. We came in the same day, and we met at HR office.. Haha.. What a funny place for a first meeting.. He is a good English speaker.. Another one my best friend, North form Thailand.. He's a lifeguard.. But one thing in common about the both of us, we both like handsome guys.. Pretty common for me, pretty rare for him.. Nevertheless, it was a great experience for me..