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All hails the BEAST a.k.a B2ST from Korea!!!

2010-06-23T10:13:00.000-07:00

Hehehe.. Its really, really, really, really been a while since i blog about my favorite Korean artist, Super Junior.. Well, since i came back from Club Med, thanks to Chuck oppa, Sydney, Ilje eoni and Cassie eoni.. My interest for Korean artist has gotten more.. Lately I am so into B2ST.. Especially their leader Yoon Doo Joon..

Tada.. All hails Yoon Doo Joon a.k.a Leader Yoon..

B2ST debut in end of the year 2009.. The were hails as the best idol group as all of the mebers were once debuted and had alot of experience.. Although they are still a rookie.. But trust me, their experience are no joke eh..

I am so bias with their leader Yoon. I cant even stand if there is a scandal between him and other artist.. heheheh.. Guest i am hardcore fan?? Dont think so...

Heck.. Life's sucks..

2010-06-23T09:57:00.000-07:00

Well, its has another 'a while' i didnt update my blog.. Thought to let it go just like that.. But to think about it.. I dont really have other places to let out my feelings that buried deep in my hearts.. My thoughts and opinions.. Or a place for me to train my typing skills other than chatting on MSN with the one and only chatting friend, Sydney Hiew. I cant say that i am full of emotions right now. To the tell you the truth, its already been a months since i am unemployed. My previous employment was with a tour company.. Everything was fine at the first place.. Until one day, i decided to send a resume to event management company.. I had no idea how did my manager found out about that and I was told that to terminate my service. I feel like i a victim in this case.. Geezz. Life is hard.. Now currently i am looking for job.. Its hard to look for job.. Although everybody has been consoling me by saying there is a sea of opportunity outside. But *sigh*.. It could be done if you had the will and trust. But me, i dont have the will at all to look for job. What is happening to me?? Dont i deserved a beat, punishment or hitting?? I feel so ashamed of myself.. Speaking of Club Med, its not a place for you to work forever there, although someone you cherish is there. If your love a re strong enough, even if you are miles away, your love will never fade away.. Call me lame.. But thats me.. After this, I determined to work hard in looking for jobs.. Hwaiting Carol..

Dead at Words..

2010-05-07T20:19:00.000-07:00

How long has it been?? Its been quit a time.. Looks like im dead at words again.. In the blink of an eye, i have now stop working for Club med almost 3 months. I am starting in a new in job in KL.. Well, its hard at first.. But now, im getting used to it. Life is like that, tied up to a word name commitment. I'm working for a travel agency in Midvalley City.. Well, although there are times i wanted to quit.. But that is life.. You have to learn on how to survive..

Well, back to my own private life. I left Club Med, so as my memories.. At first it was tough.. I dont get to used to the life of getting up like a routine.. Wake up go to work, eat, sleep and wake up and back to work again. Just so not challenging.. So, i decided to resign. Although i haven't found any job yet. How stupid am i?? Could just have stay there and work. Now, again.. Jobless at home looking for job. Might as well go back to CM.. Lol.. Suicide.. Just passed my 21st birthday with no solid resolutions. Just some freaking foolish resolutions, which is to get a boyfriend. How stupid.. How naive.. I dont know what to do with my life now.. Sounds so pathetic. In the end i feel like I will be going back to CM to work. Which i think will not work in long terms. Geez...

Please.. I really need some luck.. Or perhaps me myself dont work hard enough to look for jobs.. Come on Carol.. Buckle up.. U r 21 now.. No longer 20.. geez.. Stop thinking on playing now... Be serious.. Think of your family..

A good old day..

2010-02-19T09:10:00.000-08:00

it was another tiring day.. lots and lots children coming.. But soon, number of guest with be decreasing and who knows i had to go back early and go back to my good old days of activitIes.. I love working here.. Its my place.. last time i used to wanted to go so much to work in passworld... But now i have to think twice.. Working in passworld is so totally different.. Time pass by so slow... Things are too flexible.. And too bored.. and those children doesnt want to go anyway.. Jus wanted to stay in pass wolrd.. So bored...

So blessed..

2010-02-17T18:42:00.000-08:00

He is known as the mighty man and the tallest person in here.. His voice is so charming that melts every girls heart.. But no one knows the sweet side of him. Having to be sleepy, he fell asleep on my shoulder at a saloon while waiting for a friend of us.. He was so sleepy that he doesnt care about the surroundings and just sleep on my shoulder with everybody looking at us.. With his hand tightly arm around his body, he feel asleep for half and hour.. I look at his face.. It was like a little child sleeping.. Not the guy that i know who is very tall, charming, mature and cool.. He was a little child to me at the time..

On the way back in the, he fell asleep again.. This time on my lap.. he has this little children throwing tantrum attitude to me just because he want to sleep.. Seeing him cutely throwing tantrum, i lose to him and just let him sleep on my lap.. I stroked his hair and was thinking that his hair is growing long. I remember the last time he cut his hair was with me in a saloon.. How cute he is when he is sleeping.. Looking innocently.. I was asleep when we reached our destination.. He wake me up by stroking my hair and my face.. So sweet of him.. I am so blessed for having the chance to be by his side...

to regret or not to regret??

2010-01-30T15:55:00.000-08:00

to regret or not to regret?? Well, it doesnt matter now becoz im already at airport waiting for my flight to kuantan.. So lets say if i am to regret by now also its already too late.. Hehe.. Well, my feelings right now?? Sad and happy.. sad becoz im leaving kl and for not celebrating CNY with family but happy because i will get to meet my fellow friends in Club Med.. And this will be the first time i celebrated it away from my family.. And it is not easy though.. Hope i will have fun in Club Med..

Strangest dream i've ever had..

2010-01-28T19:39:00.000-08:00

Really.. It was the strangest dream i ever had.. And i dont know why.. It still giving me a goosebumps till now.. It was around 10AM that i went back to sleep.. As i slept quit late yesterday so of course im gonna be tired.. Lol.. Gooshh.. Later do i realized i start to dream about him.. I dream about him getting married... GOD.. i was so mad.. And yet jealous of course.. In reality we clear things up and remained good friends, but why do i feel like i still has feelings for him?? Ohh.. GOD.. The dream was so true..

I dream about him getting married with a girl with long hair.. Average face.. Tall.. Just like him.. And i was invited to their wedding.. Along with my late mother.. Goosshh.. (Bonus: i dream about him and my late mother..) I was so mad with them but i couldnt do anything.. All i can do is just wish them happiness ever after.. I was invited to their 3 wedding invitation. Lots of things going around before his wedding.. (my dream is crazy..) They even make a recording about their wedding and broadcast it on tv.. (typical ****A country people weddings..) To makes things worse, as i am his friend, he specially booked my room just next to the bride's and groom room.. WTF!!!! Gooshhh.. The dream was so real.. Gooshh... It make me more tired after dreaming it..

But in reality, we are friends... Now.. We clear things up and decided to remained friends.. We are good friend now.. But how come i feel like i still had the feelings for him?? It shouldnt be as now we didnt meet each other for few weeks.. (But im going to meet him soon again..) It was hard at first when we decided to be friends, but later do i realized we are more comfortable in becoming friends than becoming someone special to each other.. We talked more than usual, we are closer than usual.. maybe because the situation is awkward for us.. But anyway, dream is just a dream.. After i woke up, although its still fresh in my mind but i'll try to forget it.. Continuing with my daily life..

Mental Note to myself: Never go back to sleep after 10am..

Random picts in Club Med 3

2010-01-25T08:07:00.000-08:00

Random picts in Club Med 2

2010-01-25T08:04:00.000-08:00

Random picts in Club Med 1

2010-01-25T08:01:00.000-08:00

Another random yet boring day..

2010-01-25T07:47:00.000-08:00

Didnt do anything much after came back from Club Med.. All i do is eat, sleep, online, eat, sleep, online.. Thats what i have been doing for the past 3 weeks at home.. Well, managed to meet some of my friends whom i havent meet for quit sometime.. Kinda miss them.. So bored.. haiz.. Anyway.. Every night been sleeping late at night.. Knowing the next day I had nothing to do and i can sleep the whole day.. Well.. I really do not know what am i gonna do now for my future.. I dont have the intention to continue my exam.. But yet, i dont have a stable job yet.. Im still on 50-50 whether im gonna continue my exam or not.. Haiz.. Im so confuse now.. What am i suppose to do.. I dont know whether i should re-apply job in Club Med or go for other job.. arrgghhh. life is complicated..

To tell you the truth I am going back to work in Club Med on this coming Sunday.. As a part timer... Dont know whether will i re-apply back as a permanent staff.. Gosshh.. Im so confused right now.. haiz.. What should i do with my future??? aaarrgghhh....

Goodbye Club Med Goodbye...

2010-01-06T20:55:00.000-08:00

Finally, after of 8 months working in Club Med, now its my turn to say goodbye after watching every GO's going in and out.. Time pass by so fast in Club Med that i didnt realize i've been working there for 8 months.. And i really love Club Med.. I love the people there, i love the job there and so much thing that i love is from there.. Most important of all.. The one i cherish the most.. My friends and my oppa's.. So many things happen in the past 8 months and of course i cant describe everything precisely.. Will just talk about the thing that in my mind the most.. starting off with my friends.. My dearest roommate.. Eng Eng.. We've been staying together for the past 6 months.. She is my best friend, best roomies and best sister.. I love her so much that i did not want anything to happen to her.. Gosshh.. Love Eng Eng..

Next up, Sora.. My Korean best buddies.. Love her so much... a day before my departure, we didnt sleep the whole just because she wants to accompany me for a final moment.. Gooshhh.. I really love her.. Love everybody... Im gonna miss them alot.. Well, Club Med is a place that really gives you a good experience in work wise.. I love working there.. My communication skills are developed, improved and wisely used.. hehehe.. love working for club med..

in Club Med as well, i make alot of friends from diffrent countries.. Not to mention, my mini club team.. my best working colleagues ever.. Love my mini club team..

There are so many things to say out in my whole period of working in Club Med.. How i meet new friends as well.. Well, there is no need for me lingering so long as i will be back to work in club med as part timer.. Will be back soon...

A letter from someone whom i cherish..

2010-01-06T20:41:00.000-08:00

" Carol.

This is 오빠. I was very surprised when i heard that you are leaving soon. And now is the time that we have to say goodbye. I so much appreciate you for your kindness , when i just arrived here, you were one of the G.O who so warmly welcome me. Although the time we know each other is not that long, but you were my closest friend here. I'll never forget the time we shared each other. Hope to see you soon in here and i believe that you will come back and smile and call me 오빠.. I'll wait for you. Always be strong and bright like now you are. You are the best G.O for me!!

-Chuck-
2010

You MUST come back!!
If you really love here.."

Another Sweet Bless

2009-11-29T09:16:00.000-08:00

Knowing someone for few days and yet he cares for you is something you can never imagine.. Its a bless that we know that kind of guy is still exist in this world..

So random..

2009-11-13T08:40:00.000-08:00

Woww... Its really been a while since i update my blog.. Well, as usual.. Many things happen in the time i didnt update my blog.. For example, im leaving after x'mas.. I will go back to KL and no longer for Club Med and the reason is simple, i didnt got my contract for next season.. Its ok.. Besides that, now im back to mini club.. Since SoRa's came back few days ago.. She's the officially petit club GO.. Me, i dont know how to describe my position precisely.. You can say that im a ball being throw here and there.. Meanwhile, my mind started to think that i should quit club Med earlier.. My body and my mind cant stand it anymore... Im so tired.. I feel tired everyday with all the stupid set up.. Gooshh... I wanted to quit earlier..

Meanwhile, this few weeks are full with farewell parties and emotional moment.. Seasons ending and new season coming, some GO's leaving and some new GO's coming.. What most emotional moment is today, when my dearest 'jie jie' patrick leaving.. Im so sad that there will nobody to talk too and im gonna miss the moment we went out for supper together.. Anywhere, i just hope that i can go back early.. Im just so tired, i feel like i had enough of all this..

XOXO
Carolyn Foong Chee
Club Med Cherating 2009

Its a bless..

2009-10-14T00:17:00.000-07:00

Having to know a guy as a friend is good..
Having to know a guy as a friend whom cares about you is a bless..
Having to know a guy who is friend, cares about you and stay by your side all the time is a blessing from GOD..

Im happy that i know him... Even though only for a night..

XOXO
Carolyn
Club Med Cherating 2009

Random Update..

2009-10-08T18:12:00.000-07:00

Its been along time since i update my blog.. Not that i dont have the time, but u know.. lazy.. haha.. Today exceptionally on the fire because i saw the wrong schedule.. Instead of going to work on 9.30, i go to work on 8.45.. Although its an 45 minute diferent. but haih.. I still can sleep for about half and hour more.. I sleep late last night.. Because of gathering me and my friend did.. My room from becoming cinema to restaurant to massage parlour.. Hahaha.. I sleep about 4am last night.. well, nothing much about my life here.. Just one go, and another one come.. And as usuall.. its one sided... haiz....

Gonna missed Miss Kim SoRA soon enough.. She will be leaving here on 20th..Its sad.. But she gonna come back soon.. hahaha.. Its just left me.. Because i havent my affectation yet..(note: affectation is a type of form used in club med to decide whether you gonna stay or go to the other club med..)

Well, as usuall.. miss my family.. miss him... miss her.. miss my friend.. miss my bed.. and oohh yeah.. During the moon cake festival day, i was in down mood.. Miss my family and my s****d, f****r,s**t make me in not in the good mood... And i was drunk that night... Thanks to my manager, she told me to go bed early instead of doing the stupid arrival.. Shit.. My life is suck enough.. Wny does he have to make my life suffered???

Carolyn Foong Chee
XOXO
Club Med Cherating 2009..

p/s: its going to be end season soon... yahoo.. new t-shirt...

Tagged by Jason Tan

2009-09-06T06:24:00.000-07:00

1. besides lips, where is your favorite spot to get kiss ?
neck i guess...

2. how do you feel when you wake up this morning ?
i didnt sleep last night..

3. who was the last person you took photo with ? last person?
kang, chee huey, beh, jessie, kahs, christine

4. would you consider yourself to be spoiled ?
50-50

5. would you ever donate blood ?
never!!! call me cruel.. i scared of needle..

6. have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex ?
yes.. proudly to say Beh..

7. do you want someone dead ?
sometimes..

8. what does your last text message says ?
'please buy me newspaper' from my aunt

9. what are you thinking right now ?
thinking how to solved this question

10. do you wish someone to be with you right now ?
yes...

11. what time you went to bed last night ?
i didnt sleep last night..

12. where do you buy the t-shirt that you're wearing now ?
Bintang~ Rawang

13. is someone in your mind right now ?
Yes~ my mom and the one who already return to his country..

14. who was the last person who texted you ?
My aunt..

15. 10 people to tag to do this quiz :
1- Jason
2- Audrey
3- KAHS
4- Kumiko
5- Ee Von
6- Kang
7- lina
8- Wei Yang
9- Josh
10- Ann Yee
** dunoe wana tag who cz many ady tagged~ ha!

16. who is 2 having relationship with ?
No idea.. But i know it is male..

17. is 3 male or female ?
female..

18. if 7 & 8 together, would it be a good thing ?
absolutely not.. No 7 is already own..

19. what is 1 studying about ?
Business i guess..

20. when was the last time u had a chat with 5 ?
4 days ago..

21. is 4 single ?
No..

22. say something about 2 ?
Princess type girl..

23. what do you think about 3 & 6 being together ?
definitely not!!! they are best friend..

24. describe 9
calm.. Not know him so much..

25. what would you do if 6 & 7 fight ?
the end of the world for no 6..

26. do you like 8 ?
Sure~ my ex college mate..

27. listed three favorite colours
black white and purple..

6th week off..

2009-08-18T01:15:00.000-07:00

Haiz.. Its already week 6.. And im still in petit club.. Goosshh the children in petit club really make me stress.. Crying, rebelling, running.. aaahhh.. Give me a break.. I really wanted to go back to mini club.. I want to work with the chidren.. aaahh.. not babies.. aahhh.... Btw, since im permanent here i ask for holiday from my manager.. goosshh,... she havent reply me when can i take my holiday.. I wanted to go back home so much.. i miss my family.. gosshh.. i really miss my family.. Just give me a break..

xoxo
Carolyn
Club Med Cherating

5th week off..

2009-08-11T02:18:00.000-07:00

Just got my off last Friday.. And im off again today.. Well, im use to it.. Wow... Last night i was totally drunk... That i was with a Taiwan GM and since she is leaving the next day we were like crazy with alcoholics.. Goosshh.. It was a crazy night.. I was so drunk that 2 of my colleauges send me bck to my room. if my dad knows about it. he will surely dregged me back to KL..And i have learn my lesson.. Im not gonna be this drunk anymore.. It was just so painfull.. Throwing up here and there, feeling dizzy and and cant even walk properly.. Sober is enough for me.. No drunken until throwing up.. I have learn myb lesson.. Btw, im a seasonal GO here in Club Med Cherating.. My season ends in October.. I wanted to go back to KL mext month.. I miss my family.. Imiss them so much.. Especially my niece.. I wanted to play with her..

xoxo
Carolyn
From Club Med Cherating

4th week off

2009-08-07T03:30:00.000-07:00

Gooshh.. Couldnt believe its already been 4th week i work in club med.. It feels like just last week i start my work here... Time really pass by so fast here.. except this week for me.. I was put in the petit club.. The baby club.. Omg.. So darn bored.. And the time pass in petit club was si slow.. I enjoy working in mini club.. I rather work early morning everyday thab rather going to petit club.. I dint get to go out at all.. Its so bored.. Goooshh.. Hopefully i will get to go back to mini club soon.. Cross my finger by next week.. Because i dont want to deal with babies.. Aaaahhh....

Btw, i miss my family.. I miss my dad... and my sister.. Goosshh.. I wanted to see them so much.. really.. aaahh... Hopefully i got to go back soon.. Again.. Cross my finger.. Btw, missed my friends graduation.. oh well.. Not all friends went... What for im going there?? hahaha. no thanks..

xoxo
Carolyn
From Club Med Cherating..

Off Day week 3..

2009-07-30T20:50:00.000-07:00

Off for the week no 3.. Another one day off, it will a month working for me here.. Going out to Kemaman this evening.. With ah beh.. Oh gosshh.. its his last day working here.. he will be leaving soon.. Geezz.. Who am i gonna find when im on off day?? Btw, i have reply for being a permanent staff here. but do you think its worth it?? I dont know.. It seems like i made a rush decision.. I dont know.. COz the job here is very tiring and.. gosshh.. too rush i gues.. But its ok.. im fine with it.. Hopefully accepted..
Btw, lots of things happen this week.. I dont know why he doesnt talk to me at all.. What did i do wrong?? Its almost been 2 weeks he didnt talk to me.. Im so dissapointed.. He doesnt even pick up my calls.. What happen to him?? We were good the few weeks before.. It just doesnt seem right..

xoxo
Carolyn
From Club Med Cherating..

Im going Kuantan..

2009-07-14T19:39:00.000-07:00

Having off day today after 6 days of tiring working.. So tiring.. I thought of having off day on tommorow, but when i see the schedule, nobody seems can taker and off day because we are having a Jungle show... haiz... thought can get off then go Kuantan with Ah BEh.. But nevermind.. I still go to Kuantan with So Ra.. The wheather today is a bit cloudy.. Good for me.. Not so hot.. haiz.. Its just only 6 days.. Whats my fate after this nobody knows..

XOXO
Carolyn
Live from Club Med Cherating..

Life iN cluB med

2009-07-13T19:14:00.000-07:00

It has been already 5 days i have been working here.. Tiring yet fun.. This time I know alot ppl.. And i have new friends as well.. HEr name is Kim So Ra from Korea.. She is so cute and she speak English very well.. i learn Korean from her too. I was so happy this few days.. Many activities were held.. Like GO party at the other side of a beach... Very stupid the name of the cafe, "Dont tell mama Cafe' hahahaha.. SO stupid.. We end the beach party at 4.. ME and So ra came bck first, and you know what we do?? We jump into the pool at 4 am in the morning.. hahah. Take everything and jump into the pool.. hahahha.. anyway, will try to update my blog once a week..

XOXO
Carolyn...

Live from Club MEd..

Goodbye my love goodbye...

2009-07-07T04:22:00.000-07:00

"Ahnyeo haseyo... I'm KyuHyun from Super Junior.. Right now i feel so terribly sad.. My wife Carolyn, will be leaving me soon and this time for a longer period.. She will back to Kuantan to continue her job which she adores very much. As a husband, i will support her knowing that it is her decision to pursue on this career like how she supported me throughout my career.. This also means that she will be on hiatus for few weeks from blogging.. Please anticipate her comeback after 3 weeks.. Last but not least i would like to say to my wife,

'Cha gi ya, saranghamida.. Haengbokke..'

It was a close call..

2009-07-02T09:28:00.000-07:00

Today, was really a close call day for me.. I came back from interview in Hotel Melia KL.. As i reached Rawang station, i got out to take shuttle bus to head back home.. As the bus station is a across the street, of course we had to cross the street to get to the other side to get the bus.. Well, you know how crossing a busy road will dangerous, so i take an extra careful step.. So, i take off my earphone and cross the street after making sure that it is safe to cross the road.. After crossing the road, and i thought im on the safe zone, it wasnt even seconds i put back my earphones, i heard a loud sound a car break, later did i found out that the car was just at my right... i was so shocked with the closeness of the car that i fall down and hurt my hand. It wasnt badly hurt but, a few cuts and bruises.. I was so shocked, that i quickly stand up, and left the place... i dont know why i quickly left the place. Not because of embarrassed or what.. I just want to left the place quickly.. Thank GOD for giving me the second chance of life..

Ask me if i saw any light during the incident??? Of course not.. I was still conscious..

I even hurt my hand.. Although is not seems to be serious, but it is aching me.. the one i circle with red is the cuts.. While the one in blue is the bruises.. poor me...

Tagged

2009-06-30T13:09:00.000-07:00

A-Attached or Single? Attached going into single
B-Best Friend? Chee Huey, Kaya, Camin, Rene and Audrey
C-Cake or pie? Cake
D-Day of choice? Friday
E-Essential item? Computer
F-Favorite color? Black and white
G-Gummy bears or Worms? Gummy bears
H-Home - Have no idea
I-Indulgence - Shopping
J-June or July? June
K-Kids? None
L-Life is not complete without - My family
M-Marriage date - Find me a boyfriend first
N-Number of magazine subscriptions? None
O-Orange or apple? Oranges
P-Phobias? insects
Q-Quotes? im crazy
R-Reason to smile? To overcome sadness
S-Season of choice? Winter
T-Tag 5 people – Audrey, KAHS, Wei Yang, Shyan and Adrian
U-Unknown facts about me - I'm sensitive despite the cheerfulness of me
V-Vegetables? Love it
W-Worst habit? i laughed too loud
X-X-ray or Ultrasound? What for???
Y-Your favorite foods? Rice
Z-Zodiac sign - Taurus

100 Truths about me

2009-06-30T12:58:00.000-07:00

001. Real name → Carolyn Foong Chee Ak Fredrick
002. Nickname(s)→ Carol, Lyn (its so simple)
003. Zodiac sign → Taurus
005. Male or female → Female duh??
006. Elementary → All Saints Taiping kindergarten
007. Middle School →SRK (P) Treacher Methodist Taiping and SRK Sinaran Budi Rawang
008. High School → SMK Rawang (lame name of a school...)
009. College School → College Tunku Abdul Rahman
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → average
012. Loud or Quiet → loud.. all the time
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Can be both?
015. Health freak → Totally
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → So far no
055. Waiting for → My white horse prince

FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ Yes
059. Want to get married? → then why i want to have kids for?
060. Careers in mind → HoteLIAR

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Both
074. Sensitive or loud→ Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → None

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → neither two coz i dont wear one
081. Ran away from home → Nope
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Nope
083. Killed somebody → Nope
084. Broken someone's heart → hardly find someone to broke their heart
085. Been arrested → Nope
087. Cried when someone died → Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Sometimes
090. Miracles → Yes
091. Love at first sight → Yes
092. Heaven → Yes
093. Santa Claus → Yes
094 Tooth Fairy → no
095. Kiss on the first date→ dont even got my first date

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → ...
099. Do you believe in God → Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 5 people.

Dissapointed

2009-06-29T05:31:00.000-07:00

Haiz.. No words to describe my feeling right now.. And i not gonna elaborate more about this.. i just feel so disappointed.. because of this, I lost my mood, my appetite and my smile.. just feel soooooooooo disappointed.... And its gonna takes me a while to recuperate.. And there is only one way to make me recuperate.. Sadness seems to be the hardest words to describe..

There is always sunshine after rain..

2009-06-26T22:39:00.000-07:00

My mood is getting better now.. After a few days of depression my mood is getting better thanks to the spring cleaning that me and my dad have done.. Suddenly felt want to clean the whole house.. Its been 2 years since we done a spring cleaning.. After the death of my mom.. So many things we found out during the spring cleaning.. I discovered some of my mom sewing stuff that has been kept for 10 years.. My goodness.. is so antique.. I reminds me of my mom.. I miss her so much.. Unfortunately, none of us can sew better, so dad decided to throw it away.. My heart ache when i saw dad throw the things i kept to remember my mom.. I miss mom so much... i really miss her..

Btw, he called... and that is our conversation:

Him: Hello.. Hey.. sorry i didnt pick up ur calls the last few days...
Me: Its ok..
Him: sorry yah.. I've been really busy.. I didnt even bring my phone to work..
Me: Its ok..
Him: come on.. dont be like this.. i've said sorry..
Me: and i accepted ur apology.. I know u've been busy.. but.. its ok..
Him: ok... i'll call your back later when you got your tempered down...
me: okay... (hung up phone)

Am i too harsh? I mean he's already apologized, but i am being mean to him..

My life sucks...

2009-06-26T08:58:00.000-07:00

Never in my life I've felt this great pressure.. My whole mind is blank now.. I really dont know what to do.. I felt so clueless.. Guess im suffering slight depression?? I am jobless right now, and that adds more of my depression.. And he is not picking up any of my calls nor replying my message means its the end of us.. That adding up more of my depression.. Gooshh.... I know i shouldnt have felt this depression, but i cant help it.. I just feel sad.. I even try to eat sweet things to lighten up my mood.. Guess it doesnt help at all.. End of relationship with him is no big deal for me, but hello.. At least call me and give me your reason.. EXPLANATION.. Jesus Christ, what makes me sad is not ending the relationship, its because im desperately looking for job.. I wanna make my own big bucks.. i wanna make my own BIG BUCKS!!!
Money, fortune, please come to me!!!!!! arrgghh..... Im tearing up my heart now..

I'm a total failure..

2009-06-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

Well, about the job that i went for interview.. I dont know whether is a yes or no.. They ask me to give it a thought since transportation is my problem.. Goosshh.. Everything just dont goes right for me this week.. If only i know its going to be like that, i would have told my manager that i would extend.. Gooshh.. I just hate life after school... i wanna go to school.. Gooshh... I hate my life.. Its so sucks now.. Where the heck am i going to look for job??? Shit.. Bitch... F**k.. hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Everything

2009-06-24T19:22:00.000-07:00

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Lost my precious stuff..

2009-06-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

Geezz.. Shit... Damn it.. Fuck it.. Darn it.. Those who steals my RM59 Quicksilver slippers, i curse them to have nightmares every night.. Shit.... Why do they wanna steal my slippers?? The slippers is so precious for me.. Its has a lot of memories to me... Goosshh... I hate it.. aarrgghh.. Nothing seems to go right for me this few days..

Its too late....

2009-06-22T04:26:00.000-07:00

Gooosshh... One of my ex colleagues is resigning.. So she ask me to apply again for club med.. GOD.. she should have tell me earlier.. But now, everything is too late.. Im going for my interview tomorrow and i at least have to wait a year for that.. Gosshh.. Why dont she tell me earlier??? OOhh.. Im so pissed off.. Gooossshhhh!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted so much to work in club med.. aaaaarrrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 post in a day?? why not??

2009-06-21T03:19:00.000-07:00

Gosshh.. i must really felt bored.. i post 2 entry in a day.. Well, actually i am bored.. Im on my maximum level of boredom.. Dont try to piss me off or i might ended up killing someone.. hehe.. Just kidding.. Since coming back from Kuantan, all i have been doing in this one whole week at home, sitting my butt off in front of the computer and sleep.. (redemption for not having enough sleep while working in Club Med).. But i think i have enough sleep.. Basically now my thoughts have been wandering far.. I had no idea what will happen in the future nor I'm doing anything to plan for my future.. I'm just so clueless..

And actually, I've got a job interview coming Tuesday, and although the job is not the job I've dream of, at least i had to give my best.. I do not want to disappoint my family who wanted me to work in the company.. And the contract with the company only takes about a year so i think why not i just give a try?? Perhaps after that i can go back to the job i wanted..

As for now, i really miss all my college mate.. I wonder how are they now?? Its an amazing thing that we still care about each other to think that we havent seen each almost half year..

I am 20 years old now.. As for some other people, perhaps they thought they are still young.. but for me, 20 is like the age i've should have achieved something, but still, im still wandering around looking for a rightful job to me.. What the heck am i waiting for?? But im not the type who waits to get married... Heck!!! I dont even had a boyfriend!!! Am i single? Yes. Am i available? Yes. Am i desperate? ermm.. 50% perhaps.. But for now, i want to concentrate to earn my big bucks.. I wanna get the thing that i can buy with my own money.. hahahahaha...

Till the end of us..

2009-06-20T18:53:00.000-07:00

Should i just end it?? Because i dont think it will work.. Although he is special... But i feel a burden..Should i just give him up.. We, who have different mindset, different thoughts and different cultural, could we ended up being together?? He is loveable, he is cute, he is caring and he is charming..But i just felt that something is torn between us.. Should i give up? Or i should fight for this relationship together with him?? Because everything doesnt seems so right...

Should i give him up?? Super Junior CHO KYUHYUN....hahahahaha...........

Doing something beyond my will..

2009-06-19T09:28:00.000-07:00

Im going for an interview this Tuesday.. But i not happy with it. It is because, its a job that i dislike.. I am grateful for the person who offers me this job.. And i even feel thankful.. But its just the job is not in my interest.. Its my father wish that i work in the company... The job just doesn't suits my style.. My style if job is freestyle type.. For example, working in club med.. hehehe.. I really miss working in club med.. after all, my contact with the company only for a year.. maybe after that i will apply to club med again.. I want to work on something that i like.. Club Med.. wait for me!!!!!!!!!!

Its just only second day..

2009-06-15T18:13:00.000-07:00

Geezz... Its just only second day, but i have missed the people and the lifestyle in club med already.. Goosshh... I truly miss them all... There is one i miss the most.. He is really someone special.. Glad i know him.. I miss the lifestyle too... Every morning woke up at 8am, preparing to go to work at 8.40am then at 9, all the children arrive and parents start to sign them in.. At 9.30am we brought them to the archery field and then the golf, bungee bounce and trapeze.. Everything finish at 11am.. At 11am, either we brought them to the pool or we bring them to a nature adventure.. After that at 12pm, its lunch time.. Its my most favourite time.. After ensuring all the children gets their food, its my time to get my food.. Goosshh.. I really miss the all-you-can-eat buffet.. And my favourite food to eat everyday is 'jab chae' and tempura.. Well, not to miss as well, chinese food.. Thanks to Ah Kang for preparing such a nice chinese food. Hope he succeed to work in Japan.. Well, after lunch finish at 1pm, time to go back to the Kids Club and have a rest before we proceed to the beach at 2pm..

Beach time is about 2pm to 3 pm.. Then, its pool time again.. pool time is about 3 till 3.30.. Then go back to Kids Club to get change, and its snack time... My favourite time as well.. Honey stars plus coco crunch add with chocolate nuttela and some milk.. Voila!!!! Yummy yummy my own recipe.. hahaha.. My colleague Charles, everytime he sees that, he would said " Are you in stress??" Because i ate too much sweet things.. lol... Okay, after that. its family event time.. And everything finishes at 5.30pm.. Thats only the end for the kids club time.. At night we still have to work.. after dinner finishes at 8, its another activities for the mini club time.. And after that, at 9, its time for party.... Or known Crazy Sign in Club Med, where all GO's will started off the dancing, and then dragging all the guest along to dance with us.. After the dance party finish at 9.30pm, its time to invite all guest to go theathre to watch performance.. after performance, its party time.. wow.. Although we seems partying like crazy, but actually is part of our job.. Our job is to create the ambience so that the guest would join together.. Almost everynite we partying until 1, and at 1am we started to set up the theme for tomorow..

I really miss the life in Club Med, although its tiring, but its fun.. I miss the lifestyle of wearing clothes according to themes, the late night partying, dancing crazilly with other colleagues, huh.. Its just a life i cant forget.. I even the miss cranberry soda that i drink almost 8 cups a day.. (no wonder i get cough..) Well, i really miss the life... I hope i can go back to club med..

Back with new experiences @ Club Med..

2009-06-14T18:24:00.000-07:00

I'm back.. I've been away working in Club Med in Kuantan.. It was really a a great experience to me.. I even miss Club Med now.. Although it was tiring working in Club Med, but it was fun working there. At first i thought it would be very stressful working at there as all the colleagues are from other countries.. Different type of nationality.. But, after a few days there, i no longer feel the stressfulness.. In fact, it was fun working there.. All the colleagues are warm and friendly.. I love working in Mini Club Med..

Well, first of all what is Mini Club Med?? Mini Club Med, is club for children age 2 to 10.. Our job is to take care of the children while their parents went to find their own leisure. We bring the children to play different types of activities such as archery, golfing, trapeze, bungee bounce, swimming, sailing, kayaking and the list goes on.. If u were my friends, you can see how tanned am i now.. ( results from bringing children to beach everyday..)

So, that activities continues everyday for 2 consecutive weeks.. I've met a lot of cute children from all over the world. France, Japan, Korea, Mauritius and etc.. Omg.. They are so totally cute.. Sometimes there are children whom, i feel like wanted to slapped them.. My gosh.. So irritating that type of children..

Okay, enough about the children.. Lets talk about the colleagues.. i have about 11 wonderful colleagues.. Sentha from Indonesia, my mini club manager.. Ken, from Mauritius Island, my mini club assistant manager, Gloria from Indonesia, mini club GO, Marco, from Taiwan also a mini club GO, Kanako from Japan, Kids Club GO, Charles from Korea, Kids Club GO, Ee Von from Malaysia, Kids Club GO, Naoko from Japan, Petite Club GO, Jasmine, from Malaysia, petite club GO, Kumiko from Malaysia, mini club GO, Hon from Malaysia, Mini Club GO as well.. While me, im in the Kids Club.. They are the most wonderful colleagues i ever worked with.

Now lets talk about other GO's from other department that i know. First, Itsuki from Japan.. He is a bartender. We came in the same day, and we met at HR office.. Haha.. What a funny place for a first meeting.. He is a good English speaker.. Another one my best friend, North form Thailand.. He's a lifeguard.. But one thing in common about the both of us, we both like handsome guys.. Pretty common for me, pretty rare for him.. Nevertheless, it was a great experience for me..

Hiatus... Hiatus....Hiatus..

2009-05-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

"Err.. annyeong haseyo everybody.. Im KyuHyun from super Junior.. I would like to take this oppoturnity to announce that my dearly wife, Carolyn will be on hiatus for 2 weeks due to that she will be out station working.. Although I'm at Korea all the time, but i will surely miss her.. Please anticipate for her comeback.. yeorobun, gam sa im nida..."

hehehe.. Thats the 'speech' from my dearest husband, Cho KyuHyun.. Hehehe.. We got married few months ago, after 6 months of dating.. We decided to get married is because to avoid the paparazzi from writing nonsense stuffs.. hehehehe... ok, that was a joke... I will be on hiatus for 2 weeks.. Due to work.. I will be working in Kuantan as a part time in CLub Med.. Will be back after 2 weeks.. See ya soon..

My perfect birthday celebration..

2009-05-22T05:08:00.000-07:00

Okay.. i know its late to post about my birthday celebration as it was about a week ago.. But i no matter what, i would still wanted to post this as it was my most memorable day for me n my friends. My best friend..

It was really a memorable outing, as things comes unexpectedly.. I would never know they were present to celebrate my birthay. Specially thanks to Chee Huey and Kaya.. Its sad that Camin and Annrene werent there.. If not it would be merrier.. I was so happy that day.. They treat me to dinner and even bought me gifts.. I was so touched... Thank you my friend..

P/S; we went to midvalley and the garden..

No harm trying...

2009-04-30T21:39:00.000-07:00

Have just finish my exam.. i never knew that Japanese is that easy as long as you put your heart in.. I admit that i didnt study the first semester which have caused me to fail constantly in Japanese subject. Now after the training, something made me realize and i decided to give all-in in japanese subject. Hopefully i get to pass the subject..

well since i have finish my exam, now i wanted to try working.. Some of my friends suggest working in Club Med Cherating. well this the first time i working, so i cant be choosey at all.. And why not trying.. No harm trying right?? well just try to apply first, if they dont accept so what can i do right??

Rules are made to break..

2009-04-18T19:10:00.000-07:00

Well, since i just moved back yesterday, me and my sister went to Genting yesterday with her friend.. Since im the only one who is underage, i might as well the only one left outside of the casino.. But, since im the only one who left outside of the casino they ask me to enter the casino as well.. And of course, in my mind, i said i do not want too because i wanted to wait until im 21 and eligiblely enter the casino.. But they keep forcing me to enter the casino... Well what can i do since im the only one left outside..I've intered for awhile because i cant even gamble, what am i supposed to do there?? just looking at people gambling??

So, i went outside.. I went to McDonalds to have some drinks, sat there for a while before i walk the whole hotel.. I even went to 1st world.. I spend RM50 on playing at the games arcade.. Wow.. to think it back.. What a waste.. Starting to regret..Haiz.. Anyway, felt happy too.. As i manged to walk alone for 4 hours.. Wandering around alone..

지금은 모두 끝나고 마침내 나는 자유

2009-04-17T04:52:00.000-07:00

마지막 마무리가 내 훈련 .. 더 이상 고통을 받아야만 그 소름끼치는 호텔에 .. 많은 것들이 일어날에는 .. 어떤 행복, 약간 슬픈 ..
하지만 난 그냥 내가 늘 필요 다행 닛코 호텔에서 근무를 계속 ..
어쨌든, 내일 다시 내 집으로 이사 .. 그리고 그 다음 주에 시험 .. 내 시험 resit 되세요 수 있도록 졸업 ..

Its All Over Now.....

2009-04-17T04:35:00.000-07:00

Finally, my training ends today.. Im officiall free from Nikko Hotel.. Ask me will i work in Nikko if i had the chance?? No... Even if im desperate to look for job, Nikko will be my last choice.. Well, although i hate the environment there.. But i like the staff there.. Esp in Front Office and FnB.. Im gonna miss them..

Alot of things happen throughout the time im in Nikko.. Both sweet and bitter.. The sweetest things that happen to me in Nikko is knowing the staff.. As well as the trainee that came before and after us.. Im glad that i know them.. Well, lets not talk about bitter things.. Let bygone be bygone.. Lets be positive about everything.. Well, im gonna miss my locker.. F204.. Whom i shared with Moon Yee... My collegemate.. Herrmm.. Wonder whats my next plan.. Im confused... Does that this mean i have to look for jobs??

I wanted to continue studies, but seems cant.. Look like i have to settle for job after i finish all my paper.. N it could take 1 year.. HAiz.. I dont want to work so early.. Somebody.......... HELP ME!!!!!!!

All's Well End's Well...

2009-04-14T09:11:00.000-07:00

3 more days to go.. Im goin to finsh my training in 3 days time.. Felt luck that i finish 2 days earlier than my friend.. (well, audrey luckier coz she started one week later)...

At last, after all the grueling 2 and a half months, im finally free.. But, what am i goin to do next?? here's what currently i have in my mind..

1. Clear all my resit paper and try to graduate on September(although they said
there is no graduation ceremony for us)...

2. Not planning to pursue my studies as i have financial matter.. ( i do not want to
burden my sister, since she is the one who taking care of my financial since my
mom passed away.. I owed her too much..)

3. Get a job in hospitality industry and try to cope with it for a year (mental note
to myslef: if cannot tahan in hotel industry, go find another job. Either tourism
or a bank) My mind is as simple as that..

4. Get a driving license as i want to travel back and forth from work place to home..
I rather travel just for the comfort of home.. I couldnt leave my home for a long
period.. (Family is everything for me especially when i was left with only my dad
and my sister.. They are everything for me..)

5. Cannot think of anything until here.. Do not have any further planning.. (Get
boyfriend perhaps.. LOL.. If there's anyone want me..)

Well, its a bit sad that i cant graduate with my friends and my cousin who is in the same college with me.. Good grief, its all beacause of myself who never works hard..
Foolish me..

So Glad...

2009-04-09T08:30:00.000-07:00

Im glad that they change me to Toh Lee Chinese Restaurant.. At there, the work are not so hard compared to Serena BRAsierie.. And the employees are way better than the coffee house... I feel like a family member in the chinese resaurant.. N I get to eat good food too.. Imagine, i get to eat food like abalone, shark fin (real shark fin that cost RM550 per bowl), peking duck... Oohh.. all those delicious food.. But, these days, we hardly have any business.. Like tonight we only have about 6 guest.. Rarely even 10.. Almost every night.. Well, eventhough i work split shift, but its ok.. I can sleep in between those time. hehehe.. but its ok.. Everything going to end soon.. I will end my trainng in 6 days time.. Gwenchana.. hahaha...

Serena Brasierie?? BRA your mother fucker!!!!!

2009-04-06T08:18:00.000-07:00

Usually i dont speak extraordinaire vulgar words except when i am totally pissed off... Well, currently no more front office to me as i oready proceed to FnB department.. Food and Beverages department.. My last department before i end my training...(thank GOD)... Well, what made pissd off is, i was supposed to be in Coffee House a.k.a Serena BRAserie.. As our coffee house were just renovated, everything is new there.. Including the uniform.. As i am a trainee, they do not have uniform for me because they only had enough for the permanent staff..(wtf)...
So, i have to wear the trainee uniform, which is white shirt with a bow tie n black skirt.. Totally look like banquet staff.. HAiz.. Do u think i want it?? I feel awkward too.. Everybody was wearing a nice new uniform while i just wear a banquet uniform.. Until on my 2nd day in coffee serena, i was called to HR.. I wondered why.. Rupa rupanya, my General Manager wants me to be shift to TOh Lee Chinese Restaurant, just because he wants everything to be look perfect in coffee house.. Means, im a pain in the butt for him.. SHIT.... Totally BULL SHIT!!!!!

Well, luckily i went to Toh Lee chinese Restaurant.. The work there are more relax than Coffe House eventhough i have to work split shift.. But during the split shift, i get to sleep... LOL... Whatever.. Im gonna my training in less than 2 weeks time.. Yahoo... Looks like im not gonna work in hospitality industry.. haiz...

Fun yet Tiring..

2009-03-14T04:50:00.000-07:00

I have proceed to Front Desk.. Its fun though.. But it was tiring.. Before this i was in concierge and Guest Relations.. For me, that 2 place its the most fun place because there is where i had the contact with guest the most.. Although i may not that good in guiding directions, but at least i tried to satisfy the guest.. And that is my biggest satisfaction.. Today, is the 2nd day i've been in Front Desk.. Yesterday, there wasnt alot of things to do.. Maybe because, im new.. But, as a trainee, of course i had to have the initiative to ask.. Well, all well ends well, they finally give me a work after standing there for half an hour.. It wasnt important, but at least there is something for me to do rather than just standing there like a statue.. Slaughting in the bills, assist them when there is check out, photocopy when there is check in.. Wow... It was tiring.. Tiring not because of work.. But standing the whole day.. With high heels!!!!! Aaaahhh!!!!!!!!

But, among all days, this is my best day.. Why? Because i get to lead a group of Chinese from China, who wishes to see the room.. They request for Chinese speaking staff, but the is no Chinese speaking staff.. Im the only one.. Although my Mandarin is just 'half bucket water'.. But i tried my best.. Hahaha.. I was accompany by a bell man.. I was a bit dissapointed, when none of the staff at receptionist attend the China guest.. i mean. although they havent made any bookings, but if they say they wanted to look at the room means they are planning to made bookings.. Whats more, its Royal Suite that they are looking.. Haiz.. After a few chattings, i found that those Chinese are from a very big company in China.. LOL.. If Nikko Hotel misses this business, its their fault.. I oready tried my best to impressed the guest with my 'half bucket water' Mandarin....

Changing Perception..

2009-03-05T02:56:00.000-08:00

I think i change my perception towards my GRM, (Guest Relationships Manager), Yohei Hayashi.. He is cool, handsome and macho.. But he is bad tempered.. I couldnt believed with a calm he has, he's actually a bit bad tempered.. LOL.. How i know he is a bit bad tempered? HE scolded my GRO.. (Guest Relationship Officer).. My GRO was telling him the agenda of the day since Mr. Hayashi came for afternoon shift, and he was like,

"can u please shut up?? That is why i dont like Malaysia Chinese girl, always nagged and mention about money.."

LOL.. WTF is his problem?? Just hell go back to your Japan u bitch... That is why i said like Korean guys than Japanese guys.. LOL... Looks like my thoughts are right..

The cute 13 is back.. Sorry,Sorry.. And its 13EYOND YOUR IMAGINATION..

2009-03-04T06:21:00.000-08:00

Finally.... My dearest Super Junior back with thaie album after an hiatus for 1 and 6 months.. Na neun chincha super junior ni bogoshipo... Aahhh.. Cant wait for their album.. What's more, cant wait for my dearest Kyuhyunnie sexy and retro look.. LOL.. To think back, i fall in love with super Junior only took me 2 months.. Haahahah... Anyway, hoping super Junior wil get the Daesang Awards this year.. And certainly 2009 is going to be the year of Super Junior... Super Junior hwaiting!!!! Uree, Super Juni'OR!!! Uree, ELF eyo!!!!!!

The progress in internsip..

2009-03-04T06:02:00.002-08:00

Well, im out from housekeeping and to front office i go.. Haiz.. Miserable experience in housekeeping department.. Although i said its miserable, but i still like housekeeping department. Why? Because in housekeeping department i can have my own sweet time.. I cant relax whenever i want, but in front office, lol.. Everything have to be jaga.. Jaga your walk, jaga your voice.. Although i like the uniform, but the worst things is i cant even put my hand inside the coat pocket. Ridicilious.. Really ridiclious.. Aaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! But, what i like about front office is my GRM.. Guest Relationship Manager.. Mr. Hayashi Yokei.. He is totally a cute hunk.. He is cool and handsome..He's the reason my days pass by fast in front office.. Hahaha.. Dont get me wrong.. I just like to see his face.. Not really fall in love with him.. He's 29 for GOD's sake.. Although i like mature guy, but I still like Korean guys more than Japanese.. hahhahahaah... Hw i wish my GRM is 'Kangoku' (Korean.. hahhhah.. I must dreaming..

Well, the first day im in front office, i was called back to stay back to work as room attendant (again???) as they need people to make up room..But just for one hour because of early arrival from Japanese tour.. Like shit lar..Looks like they cant live without me.. hahahaha.. Specially invited me.. hahahaha... Anyway, im in front office now.. Next week i will be following Mr.Hayashi.. LOL.. Dnt get me wrong again, not that kind following, like stalker, i will be training under him for guest relationships.. Hahaha.. Looking forward to it..

Public Area?? Cehh....

2009-02-20T00:20:00.000-08:00

Moving on to the next department? Or should i say new job? Nope.. New supervisor? LOL.. Whatever.. No longer working as room attendant nor supervisor for room attendant.. Haiz.. Work in public are now.. LOL.. The uniform are sucks than the room attendant uniform.. They call that uniform? LOL.. i called that 'kain lap kaki'.. Damn ugly.. Well whatever.. I will there only for 2 days.. Juz bear with it.. LOL.. Public are the most bored place in the hotel line..(for now)... LOL.. nothing to do in the lobby.. Juz wiping and thats all.. I feel so sleepy all the time.. I was given another task, to 'jaga' the public toilet.. LOL.. Worst, i lagi sleepy like that.. I was given to cover 2 toilets.. the toilets i jaga, is the toilet that nobody ever steps in cause it was too isolated.. LOL.. It was good for me.. U know why? Whenever i feel damn sleepy, i go to the most isolated toilets that even my supervisor rarely come and check, to sleep.. I locked the door and sleep for few minutes.. It was the best toilets a.k.a 'bedroom' for me.. with the music is the loudest there.. i sleep for few minutes.. Sadly, we cant take our camera in, if nt i would have taken the picture of my beautiful toilets a.k.a 'bedroom'...

Life without the comfy of home..

2009-02-17T00:49:00.000-08:00

Haiz.. i moved out the house juz for the stupid internship.. Although its only for 2 and a half months, i still feel homesick.. I miss my bed, i miss my house, i miss goin out breakfast with my sister n a father every sunday.. Haiz.. Everthing is lacking here.. Its so pathetic living outside.. I think will never left home.. Home is everything for me... Its so pathetic that me n audrey, my roomate have too cook instant noodle in the room..

Internship?? Like HELL...

2009-02-17T00:37:00.000-08:00

Im in the 2nd week of my HELL internship.. Didnt do any updates last week coz i was hell tired from working. The first department i got was Housekeeping department. Shit.. My other classmate, they even have 2 days orientation and mine was, half an hour briefing and straight to work.. LOL.. My first task was room attendant.. And i since i am a trainee, i cant do bed at all.. I dont hav the chance to make bed at all.. To make the story short, i been cleaning a total of 102 of toilets in 5 days.. Haiz..

Coming to 2nd week, i started to change work, to minibar.. LOL.. It was HELL bored.. Nothing to do at all at minibar department.. I was so sleepy.. When i was a room attentdant, i wish for a easier job.. But when i in minibar department, i wish for a job.. Its juz didnt seems to go right.. haiz.. 2nd day, got 'naik pangkat' and become housekeeping supervisor. I thought housekeeping supervisor job would be easier, but, my thought all crushed when i was assigned to do a floor that is closed for spring cleaning.. I have to become a room attendant with my coat on.. Worse, im brushing the whole room with juz a toothbrush.. I cant believe it!!! Its juz doesnt seems right!!!!!

The start of HELL's day...

2009-02-09T06:55:00.000-08:00

Im goin to start my training soon.. To be exact, its tommorow.. Im so envy audrey.. She could start on 16th..aaahh!!! I oready move to Wangsa Maju.. its so hot here.. And the bathroom damn dirty.. Lol.. I wonder why we didnt look at the toilet at first place.. haiz.. Too rush i guess.. Im moving in alone as Audrey starting late, so she move in late.. Audrey!!! When r u coming????

this the first time i live by myself outside.. I mean i've been living outside, but, not this long.. The longest was only a week.. HAhaha.. guess i have to depend on my own now.. Ohh.. Mommy how much i miss u... Haiz.. Goin to resit paper.. 5 subject.. haiz...

The Heat of Chinese New Year..

2009-01-24T08:05:00.000-08:00

Its 25th Jan 2009.. Tomorrow will be Chinese New Year. This is the 2nd year im celebrating it without the presence of my mom.. Haiz.. Couldnt believe that my mom oready left me for almost a 2 years..

I still remember it clearly how mommy made all the preparation before CNY.. Especially during the reunion dinner. She prepared alot of delicious food that i think the most delicious food in the world... Well, everything left as memory now.. No longer can taste her delicious food, i cant inherited her her good cooking skills.. I may be good in cooking, but will never get the taste of my mom hand anymore..

Well, since its the eve of CNY, i will not talk about sad things.. Im so happy that all my realites come back.. Even my uncle Paul are coming back from London.. Hehehe,.. I havent met him for quite a long time.. Well, we are going to Fraser hill for vacation trip.. Hope it will be a fun trip.. But sadly after that, HELL comes back.. I have to continue my exam.. Haiz..

Finally.. Im back!!

2009-01-23T04:18:00.000-08:00

We who go the theme park..

Me n my 'dai ka jie' chee huey.. My BFF.. Love her..

us who celebrate Sheng Min birthay..

Sorry i didnt update my blog for quite sometime.. Its because im on exam and my keyboard gave me so much of trouble.. Well, what happen in those time.. Well.. Lets start with my trip with clazmate to Genting.. its was worth it going to Genting.. At first, they are alot of 'obstacle' happen before we go to Genting.. but luckilly we managed to go to Genting.. Hehehe.. What make me sad is the absenced of my 2 friends.. At first they promise me to go, but at last they were the one, who break the promise.. I was damn sad and dissapointed.. i thought this will be our last trip together since we are on last semester.. But, haiz.. I do not know what to say after they break the promise.. As they already break the promise, me of course i wouldnt break that just because they didnt go.. i still have others friends who is going too.. well, luckilly i amke a wise choice.. the trip was definately fun..

Summary of the trip, alot of thing happens.. We celebrate Sheng Min birthday.. We go to play all sort of extreme game.. And play again and again.. Hahaha.. The theme park belong to ours.. Well, im so proud of myself.. The most extreme game in Genting theme park, the spaceshot.. i played already.. Wow.. my heart almost fell down during the game.. Hahaha.. At least i can tell the world that i've tried the game.. hahahaha.. My God.. only GOD knows how extreme is the game is.. No wonder Audrey n Ah beh they all dont want to play.. its way too extreme.. We went to all sort of outdoor game.. hhehehe.. i even went to Arena Stars to take a peek inside.. I imagine once Super Junior was there too.. Hahaha.. i imagine Kyuhyun walking down to the arena. hahaha My KYU... Went to boat ride with Audrey.. Eventhough i dnt know whether its raining or because of mist, it seems there is rain drop while we were riding the boat.. hhehe.. Thats all i can say bout my trip.. In summary, we all have fun and i hope there will be another trip like that..

p/s: Im on exam now, things getting tense for me.. Moreover im going to internship on 10 February.. Oohh.. Vry nervous.. Samgyeopsal Juseyo!!!!!

Hiatus

2009-01-09T06:42:00.000-08:00

I will be on hiatus for few weeks.. Having eXam n then going for internsip.. will update my blog from time to time..

Craziest Xmas party ever!!!

2008-12-26T03:22:00.000-08:00

Me, Clifford and Kin Hock.. We are half drunk.. hehehe..

This me n my drunk partner, Clifford..

LOL.. Yesterday Xmas party was the craziest i ever attend.. It was damn fun man.. Eventhough most of them i didnt know, but we got to know each other during the party. LOL.. I have to thanks to Prisca and Audrey.. Thanks Audrey for introducing me to Prisca and thanks Prisca for inviting me to the party. At first, I wouldnt want to go because i felt i was quite far (the location is in Bandar Utama).. 2nd, because there are arent any people whom i know.. So, but its beacuse audrey, wei ching, kaya and Annrene will be there to, i thought why not i juz go since im free on that day and the following day. So, i waited at the Curve for Prisca and Audrey to fetch me to go the house.. And when we reach at the house, wow.. It was alot of people i dont know..
But, u learn as u go rite?? so i got to know some of them.. Few guys n few gurls.. Actually that night, there are more guys than girls.. So i got to know more guys than girls. Coz mostly girls are my classmate.. LOL..
Hehehehe.. We were extraordinary crazy that night. We played charades, true or dare.
LOL.. I must been influenced by the alcohol, i actually did a pole dance for my dare challenge.. With a guy as my pole.. OMG!!! To think it back, its so embarassing.. Well, i got to know a few friends, Mondy, William, Anthony, Clifford, Kin Hock, Cecilia and many others. They were all very friendly..
We were all quit sober, especially me n Clifford.. The both of us dont even know whether we are drunk or sober, so we start to talk nonsense.. Hahaha.. LOL.. But i can remember everything clearly.. HAhaah.. So im not drunk.. hahaha.. Anyway, its fun to know all of them.. Hopefully there will be some others gathrings like this..

A nightmare have teach me a lesson

2008-12-20T00:11:00.000-08:00

I quarrel with my dad n sister yesterday..
Juz because of small things.. Im so damn pissed off with them..
I so damn pissed off until i felt i wanted to moved quickly..
LOL.. The next day, I was taking my lazy nap, and i had a nightmare.. I dream bout my dad and my sister wouldnt want me anymore.. I was so sad n keep asking are they really wouldnt want me, n they keep say yes, yes.. I was so sad..
I woke up from my sleep n i was relief dat i was juz a dream..

Merits Of A Girl Who Prays At Dawn

2008-12-17T07:41:00.000-08:00

1. Because a girl who prays at dawn
Knows how to cook.

Coming back after waking up early to go to church at dawn
Everyone is sleeping and there isn’t anyone to talk to.
Starts to wash the bowls.
Switching on the button on the rice cooker after washing the rice grains.
(Recently in this world, as long as your wife wakes up to say ‘Be careful on the road’ you will feel very thankful and that a man who can eat his breakfast before going to work is a very blessed man… )

2. Because a girl who anticipates at dawn
Doesn’t ‘nag’.

When you’re praying at dawn, it’s always for your husband
Crying tears and praying to see that
Your husband who’s sleeping away isn’t able to give you care and concern.
The children don’t say anything either.
Taking the fallen socks beside the bed
With a happy mood and putting them into the washing machine.
Taking the toys and books in the messy living room
(And) Arranging them nicely.

3. Because a girl who prays at dawn
Is a girl who knows ‘What love is’.

You who obediently loves God’s high attitude
If you had a husband and children
Neither love nor obedience would be difficult.
Girls who rebel against God can rebel against anyone
So you must be careful.

5. The children of the girl who prays at dawn

Grows in their dreams.

Every dawn with Joseph
and Daniel, dreaming the same dream
Praying for the sake of your children
After coming home beside the girl who’s in her dreams
Praying for this dream
Why doesn’t her children grow along with the dream?

6. A girl who prays at dawn
Has an existing ‘Scary Hatred Prayer’.

If the girl bears a grudge, the frost won’t be rid of even in May and June
If the girl starts to pray because of you, then the frost will melt.
Kindness is just like the arrival of raindrops.
It’ll be awesome if the prayer is answered.
(Even a ‘No’ answer is inclusive)

7. A girl who prays at dawn

Because there’s a ‘hard-working woman’.

Lazy girls will absolutely not open their eyes in the morning.
Unless it’s to go to the restroom……
To look at themselves.
Recently if you’re too lazy you won’t be able to get out of bed right.

8. A girl who prays at dawn

Has a good appetite and is healthy.

After going to church and making a round in the morning, she is hungry.
Eats lots of snacks at the market.
Because she ate too much for breakfast, she’ll only eat a little for lunch.
In the evening, because she is still full, she’ll just randomly eat a little.
One who definitely eats breakfast is healthy
To become a healthy person, is a fact that everyone knows….

If you’re a man! No matter if you believe her or not, you must marry a girl who prays at dawn. Why is this so, you are the answer to this girl’s prayers

Human from all walks of life..

2008-12-17T06:55:00.001-08:00

But humans never fails to impress humans.

Currently into photography mood.. Suddenly felt that nowdays, humans are really busy.. I even thought that, do they cares bout their family since the are too busy.. Surely they will..

What happen to our world?

2008-12-17T06:41:00.000-08:00

Imagine the world without humans.. It would be lonely and cold.. Safe the world before it is destroy??

Destructions? Global warming? Or the end of the world? Imagine the world without humans..

Angel descending from the sky??

2008-12-17T06:24:00.001-08:00

Angel descending from the sky???

Going for a shopping spree today, while waiting for time to past, suddenly i felt like wanted to look at the sky.. When i look at the sky, the sun shines between the cloud like there is something in the sun.. And i said to myself, 'Angel descending from the sky??'

Please comment everybody 2

2008-12-15T06:47:00.001-08:00

Please comment on my photography skills.. This also some of the pict i took during the short trip to Pulau Pangkor n Kuala Selangor.

Please comment everybody..

2008-12-15T06:25:00.000-08:00

This is some of the pict i snap during the trip to Pulau Pangkor n Kuala Selangor

Since i felt that my blog is a bit bored.. So, starting today, im gonna post some of the photo that i snapped during a trip or everywhere.. Photography is one of my hobby so, the picture i snap, might abit different.. So, everybody who view my blog, please leave ur comment about my photography skills.. thanks..

Wedding trip In Teluk Intan

2008-12-15T06:00:00.000-08:00

I was out offline for 3 days.. LOL.. Went to Teluk Intan for my cousin wedding. Man, as usual.. it was so bored without internet.. Time passed really slow for me in Teluk Intan.. fortunately, im back.. So, gluing myself in front of the computer again.. hahaha.. juz came bck frm a short trip to Pulau Pangkor and Kuala Selangor after we set off frm Teluk Intan this morning. Been eating so much seafood in one day. Lunch and even dinner.. LOL Lots of cholestrol.. Have to restrain myself from eating so much fattening things.. Huhuhuhuh.... By the way.. During the wedding dinner, it was my first time ever for whole of my life, im in heavy make up.. LOL.. Wats more i make up myself.. Hopefully its not too bad..
hehehe..

Aaaahhh.. So embarassing!!!!

2008-12-11T02:50:00.000-08:00

This few days i've been totally tired.. Totally knock out.. I was tired from being sleeping late, assignments and well.. computer of course.. So, yesterday i took train back home. As the train journey took about 45 minutes to reached its destination, so i thought why dont i take a nap for a while.. I was really tired. So from Kl Sentral i sleep until Kuang, the second last destination before reach Rawang. I woke up for a while and said to myself,

"oohh.. i reach Kuang already.. Hhhmm.. Nevermind it took 10 minutes to reach Rawang.."

So i continue with my nap.. As i was dreaming, suddenly i've been waken up by a lady.. OMG.. I have the reached the destination but i was asleep. The lady woke me up when she saw me sleeping. She said i've been sleeping for 5 minutes.. My GOD.. Damn embarassing.. I was like.. "Oottokee???".. I said thanks to the lady and quickly get out from the train.. My GOD.. I must have been really tired.. I never had this before in my one year train experience..

P/S: I said to myself from that day, "never gonna back to sleep if its reached
Kuang.."

The Babi Kingdom

2008-12-08T20:36:00.001-08:00

...INTRODUCING...
...BABI KINGDOM...

created by Princess & Carolyn
just for fun...please leave if you can't take it as a joke...

Once upon a time, there's a kingdom named BABI..
Here lives a Princess together with her babizens.
It consists of...

Princess
Audrey

Prime Minister & Princess' PA
Carolyn

Deputy Prime Minister
Chee Mei

Minister of Finance
Beh Yi Haw, he spends money like water.
Deputy
Camin, sha saves alot & spends necessarily.

Minister of Transport
Andy, the Cina Babi

Minister of Babi Betina Affairs
Annrene
Minister of Babi Jantan Affairs
Sheng Min, my uncle

The Opposition Minister
Rahman, he's the only malay in our class..no bias what-so-ever
Deputy
Wee Sun, against all babizens' opinion

Minister of Education & Foreign Language
Kheng Fei, Japanese genius in our class & straight A student

Minister of Agriculture
Hui Shan (KAHS), she ♥ green color, everything green

Minister of Defence
Jessy, dai-ka-jie, damn garang & straight-forward
Deputy
Ru Teeng, speaks her mind

Minister of Sanitation
Chee Huey, her toilet damn clean

Minister of Fashion Design
Jessica, our very own model
Deputy
Kaya, another shopping queen in our class

Minister of Labour
Ho Xin, part time jobs supplier
Deputy
Lu Yee, queen of prudent spending

Minister of Internal Affairs
Chui Yee, knows the in & out of the class
Deputy
Wei Yang

Minister of Sex Education
Wen Chaw, don't have to elaborate on this

Minister of Naivity

Soo Nee, our Miss Blur

Minister of Sports
Wei Ching, ichiban table tennis player
Deputy
Yuen Huey

Minister of Low Profile
Nick

All you can eat..

2008-12-08T20:31:00.000-08:00

Went to Kepong yesterday with my realitives to eat steamboat.. Wow.. My favourite.. Whats more, its a 'all u can eat steamboat'.. I sat with my cousins who is bonzer like me.. Imagine how much we ate.. Hahahaha.. I think the restaurant goes bankrupt if we continue to eat.. Hahahaha.. LOL What a happy day for me.. Wish there a gathering like this again..

The Princess of 'Babi' Kingdom celebrates her 21st anniversery..

2008-12-06T05:37:00.000-08:00

The 'ball' for Princess Of 'Babi' Kingdom was held in the country 'townhall..'

Happy belated birthday to the Princess of 'Babi' Kingdom.. Her Royal Highness, Princes Audrey Thean.. Heir to the 'Babi' Kingdom throne.. Mostly all pig have their time of life between 2 to 3 years before being slaughther.. But this pig, lives until 21 years old.. So, u can say this the oldest pig alive.. Hahaha.. Sorry Audrey.. No offenced.. Just for humor.. Anyway, happy belated 21st birthday.. I called it belated cause i wrote the blog today.. Hahaha.. Big girl oready lor.. No longer 18.. Hahaha.. Wish you happy always.. and friends forever..

P/S: Sorry that i push ur face to the cake.. Anyway, its ur 21st rite, so u have to accept evrything.. hahaha..

Our blood and sweat pays off..

2008-12-05T05:41:00.000-08:00

LOL.. Yesterday was the happiest day for me.. Me n my group member finally completed our presentation which were worried for few weeks.. What make us most satisfied with our presentation is we made it to make our lecturer and classmate to laugh with our role play.. To tell the truth, this the first time i put a lot of effort in a presentation.. i dont knw why, all of us really cherish this presentation, maybe because we feel like our blood and sweat were all over this presentation.. I even stay 2 nites at my group member house in order to complete the assignment and to practice the role pley.. We sleep almost 4am in the morning..

Well, in this blog, i would like to say thank you to my group member, Annrene, Camin, Kaya n Chee Huey.. A lot of things have happen during the time we preparing this assignment.. im so happy that we can complete it without much problem. Those 2 days were my most happy day.. Remember my friend, when we were lauging out loud with chee huey 'tanduk'?? And when during the Ah La Long part where Camin cannot bear to look at my face? Also the part where Kaya runs in so cutely that everybody laughs? It will stay in memory forever.. Hey annrene, remember when you and me arguing about the power point? I will remember it too.. All those things really brought us much more closer in bond. And in happy that we brought happiness to class too eventhough it was quit messy.. Hahaha.. Anyway, im gratefull to know u guys.. I LOVE YOU GUYS...

Whats more embarassing is our lecture post the photo during lecture today.. My GOD.. She post the part where i pose as Elvis Presley.. LOL.. Im so embarrased.. I thought she snap the photo for junior to see, i never thought she would it show at the lecture, and in front of my coursemate.. MY GOD...

Discussion ended up being a variety show..

2008-11-28T06:18:00.000-08:00

Didnt get to online yesterday because i was at Genting Klang overnite at Chee Huey house.. Having a discussion for our assignment.. We having discussion at Kaya house..Me together wit Annrene, Camin, Kaya, n Chee Huey discuss bout the role play for our assignment.. We sleep at 2am after the discussion.. The discussion could hav end earlier, but no thanks to our unstoppable sense of humor, the disscussion ended being a variety show to everyone.. We kept laughing with our role play eventhough its in the middle of the night.. LOL.. I hope our presentation will turn out good.. Yeorobun!!!! Please look forward for it...

Japanese boys are so Kawaii!!!!!

2008-11-26T01:29:00.000-08:00

Today, during the Japanese class we were getting a sudden visits from 6 exchanged Japanese male student.. OMG.. They were so cute.. They came to Malaysia for 3 days for a study programme.. My God, i was so nervous when i found out that they were standing outside of our class.. I was so happy because this the first time i met a Japanese.. I mean, i do met alot o Japanese, but this is the first time i get to interact with them.. This is a rare opportunity.. Eventhough my Japanese is not dat good, but, i'll try my best to communicate with them..

The first thing i do when they walk in was, I stand up and said 'Hajimemashite..' (means, nice to meet u for the first time..) I was being laughed by my friend.. I wonder why were they laughed, because this is a proper greetings in Japan.. LOL.. Probably they laugh baecause i look nervous.. We started up with those 6 cute guys introducing themself.. LOL.. They sound very shy.. We barely can hear them talking.. All i knw, one of the guy likes to play baeseball.. I was being mischievious by asking how old are they and turn out all of them age 17.. LOL.. They look older than us.. Even look older than Audrey who is 21.. Hahaha..

Luckilly, we got Kheng Fei who is the master of Japanese language in our class to ask them more question.. One of them said that Malaysia curry are spicier.. Hahaha.. Of course, Japanese curry are only sweet.. Hahaha.. n they even said that Malaysian whether is hot.. Atsuii desu.. Hahaha.. We the Malaysian also sometime cant even bear with the hot whether.. Lastly, we ask what do they think about Malaysian girls and they gave a positive feedback by saying Malaysia girls are so kawai.. Hahahah.. Today Japanese class made my my day with the present of those kawaii Japanese guys.. Hahaha.. Try to exchange e-mail, but they said they dont have or rather they dont understand what i said cause i speak English.. (note: Japanese English are sucks..)
We even took picture with them.. What a memorable day..

Almost Gone Are My Babies

2008-11-20T02:19:00.001-08:00

Hahaha.. LOL.. Dont get me wrong again.. Im not having babies or wat.. I am back after a hiatus from not going online for 5 days.. No thanks to the virus who attacks my computer.. I didnt get to online for 5 days..Its like the end of the world to me.. It was so bored without computer man.. Times passed by even slower.. Only GOD knows how bored am i and how much i miss my babies..

Speaking of babies, who are my babies that i mentioned earlier that is almost gone? It was my Super Junior and TVXQ photos which i collected with my blood and sweat.. About thousands of them.. If they are gone, im sure gonna cried with tears of blood.. These are my babies.. Not just that, about 500 songs that i collected are also almost gone.. Thanks to my cousin, he managed to saved all my file.. My babies are safe..

I did not even get to know the latest about my babies.. LOL.. My web friends from Korea and also all around the world wondering where have i gone.. hahahaa.. luckily my bro get it fixed.. Now, i can online safe and sound..

Anybody to accept me?

2008-11-15T03:45:00.000-08:00

Dont get me wrong.. Im not running away from home or what.. I received a bad news that i might probably may not get to move in to Annrene's room.. The reason is so simple.. Its because i stay for 2 months.. LOL.. But it make sense though.. You just couldnt corrupt people business just by staying 2 months only.. Besides they will be freshie who will needed roomate and stay on a longer period than me.. LOL.. It gaves me headache now..

OMG.. Im so freaking worried rite now.. No Japanese 1 subject to be offer to resit this sem.. My Japanese skill is improving right now.. (Thanks to watching too much of Youtube and paying attention more in the class...) If i dont resit by this sem, i think my Japanese pronounciation will be rusty by next sem.. LOL.. My frens been wondering why does my Japanese 1 failed eventhough i did well in the class.. Me myself do not know too.. Probably because of last semester heartbroken moment to me, I work hard a little bit this semester.. Cause I dont want to lose anymore.. Or failed.. LOl..

Countdown to homesick

2008-11-07T06:08:00.000-08:00

OMG.. I have to moved out during the intership.. I never been away from my family for so long.. the longest was 1 week.. But now i have to away for 2 months!!!! Ohh.. im gonna miss my computer, my bed n everything..

btw, im gonna move in with annrene.. She is working in Mandarin Oriental.. Juz next to the station I got down.. So, it would be convenient for me.. Whereas, she is my goodfriend too.. LOL.. im gonna be totally homesick.. Im worried bout my family too. Who's gonna make them dinner and do all the household chores?? LOL.. Im started to worried eventhough it still has few months to go..

My first working experience in Banquet..

2008-11-07T05:45:00.000-08:00

I got accepted to Nikko Hotel as a trainee.. I was freaking scared during the interview.. But in the same time, I'm a bit confidence of myself.. Hehehehe.. I know i would do well cause i 've done a lot of preparation before going to the interview..

Luckily got accepted.. Phew.. What a relief.. so, as i am going to work in nikko hotel soon, so i thought, why not i work as a part timer there.. I work in banquet.. It was my first time working in a hotel.. LOL.. Only GOD knws how nervous and scared i was at the time.. Whats worst, it was a wedding dinner and i got the table that is just next to the main table.. OMG.. Imagine what would they think if i done badly? Or would they complaint to my manager if i done badly?? Fortunately, i done well.. I was so happy that the feedback given by the guest at my table are positive feedback..whats more, the table i served, are all the friends of the groom.. imagine how handsome the guys are.. In few seconds, i cant even focused to my job.. Luckilly, i didt overpoured the tea.. Hahaha.. So crazy.. Anyway, it was a good experience to me.. In results of working at the banquet, my muscle sored the very next day.. especially my arm.. LOL.. cant even lift it up.. even skipped school on Monday..

Anyway, it was a good experience.. I met new friends and in the same time able to understand how does hotel lines working..

Friends forever..

2008-10-22T08:23:00.000-07:00

Having a belated birthday celebration for my dearst fren Chee Huey yesterday with Kaya, Camin, Annrene, Joel n Donovan.. Believe it onot we ate Thai food.. At first i thought i would taste sucks.. But surprisingly it turn out the food were damn nice.. All of us were like 'mm.. This so delicious..' N keep trying other ppls food.. Hahaha.. After the meal, we talk for quit sometime.. We talk about our last sem together n something came out my mind n in said ' why dont we talk about the positive n negative bout each n everyone of us..' LOL.. It was quit interesting.. We talk till almost 2am in the morning..

Im really gratefull to have this bunch of friends.. The feedback from them of my positive side was great. I never thought that i would be that good to them.. But among all feedback, i like Chee Huey feedback the most.. I feel touched with what she said and i almost tearing up with it.. She said, i was like a sister to her.. N for some reason, she said she love me so much as a sister.. She said she would never thought of hurting me.. I was so touched with it.. I love all my friends.. Forever.. I hope we will never parted..

Well, about the negative side of me, well wat they say is true.. They said sometimes im too childdish.. But they forgive it, probably beacause im the youngest in the group.. N they said im sometimes very roughed.. I dont act like girl sometimes.. Well, im quit boyish.. Im said sorry to them n tell them i will overcome this.. Hahahaha..

LOL.. Btw, yesterday when me n my family came bck from somewhere, suddenly our car run out off engine.. my cousin said probably out of gas but the car oil needle shows dat it still hav oil.. Must be something wrong with the oil needle.. HUh.. Luckilly, the petrol station was just at the opposite site.. Me, my father n my cousin, pushed the car till petrol station.. It was quit fun though.. Hahahaha..

So depresed..

2008-10-18T05:57:00.000-07:00

I feel like wanted to killed myself.. I failed 4 paper in my exam.. Whats more i fail my Economic n Japanese paper which i was resitting.. I feel so pressure.. All my friends who was resitting with me, pass.. Im the only one fail.. Im such a loser.. What i couldnt believe is i got C- for housekeeping subject which i confident at least getting C or B-.. Nvr thought would get C-.. Im so totally depresed.. I hav total 6 resit paper n i confirm i would not gradute with my friends.. goodbye my friends.. I'll see u guys again when there is oportunity..

I feel so ashamed that my friends all get to passed, while im not.. Guess i hav to work hard from now on.. I really hate this Economic subject.. N i wanted to clear it as sson as possible.. But seems like there no way out for me.. I still hav to resit.. Haiiihh.. Life is so miserable for me now.. Guess i couldnt graduate with him.. bye-bye...

Starting a new semester..

2008-10-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

Well, actually i start my semester a week late.. Its all because one word, lazy.. Hahaha.. Im so lazy after 2 weeks of holiday. The lazyness juz dont disappeared. Even after i went to college, the laziness still wont disappeared.. Is there any medicine to this disease? LOl.. Hahaha.. This would be my last semester as i will go for training next year and probably wont get to see most of my friends anymore. So, i try my best to hang out with my friend..

My friend went to Pulau Ketam for a classmate outing, i didnt follow.. But when i saw their picture, i was like wow.. Its a pitty i didnt follow them as it seems fun.. Its not that i do not want to follow them, to tell you the truth, its because of my financial problem.. I have the money, but i feel that i do not want to spend it as i want to save.. I do not want to burden my sister who is using her own money to pay my school fees. I feel so guilty and helpless.. I really, really wish that ptptn loan would approve my final loan, so that my sister wont hav to use her own money..

I AM A REBELLIOUS DAUGHTER

2008-10-08T04:49:00.000-07:00

Ever had the feelings of runaway frm home?? I hav.. Indeed few times.. I do not knw why my father accusing me as a rebellious daughter.. Wat did i do wrong to earn such a harsh word.. Okay, i admit i cooked a little bit late yesterday nite.. But it was beacause i specially fried two eggs for my sister who do not eat another dish i prepared.. With no thanks at all, she woke up frm sleep n shout why do i cooked the dinner late.. To make things worsed, my father who doesnt knw anything, back up her to scold me.. Do you knw how does it feel for being scold without having to chance to explain? I feel really pressured.. I am a 19 year old girl.. Not a housewife.. I do not hav the freedom as other 19 year old ppl had.. Y izit so unfair?? Wats more worsed, my father said i hav changed.. I changed a lot.. He said i was not the usual Carolyn.. I changed since my mom past away.. Is it true? I dont even knw whether i had change or not.. All i knw is i started to feel bored cooking at home.. Imagine, i have been cooking at home for 4 years.. Since i was 16.. I am a girl, a teenage n a student.. I need to hav my own time.. I need time, to hav my own leisure.. I rely envy my friend whom hav all they fun they wanted.. Y my mom hav to go early.. Y mom?? Why do u past away so early? Do you knw how hard life without u??

While i writing this blog, my sister n father at the back having dinner.. Enjoying themself, while me, the rebellious daughter, sitting here in front of the computer, isolated.. They dnt even ask me whether i have my dinner or not... Am i that bad in their eyes? Of course, i am known as the daughter who fights back whatever my father said.. The one who didnt do household chores, the one who always sat in front of computer doing nothing, the one who sleeps until 12 in the afternoon.. All that is wrong is bout me.. I never seems to do right eventhough i did it right.. aahh!!!! I feel life is sucks.. I want to finish my study as sson as possible n go to work.. So that i can move out and live on my own.. i do not want to live in this house that is full crazy ppl.. I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy + Sad = Almost broken my car window

2008-10-04T03:59:00.000-07:00

I was so happy that that we manage to celebrate my sister 22nd birthday yesterday.. I'm happy that my sister celebrated it happily with all my family members.. What made me sad the most is, it reminds me of my mother.. My mother passed away 1 week bfore my sister 21st birthday.. After all the planning that my mom did for her big 21st birthday, was all left as memory.. Whats more sadddening is the place that we held my sis birthday party, was the place where my mom spend her last gathering with family members before she left the world the very next day.. Its so sad to think it back now.. But, life muz go on.. I muz live on for my mom.. My friend always said that i look mentally tough eventhough it is juz a year my mom left this world.. But the truth is, I am weak, i cried more than anyone else in this world whenever i thought bout my mom.. I never showed my sad feelings to others as i dnt like bothered people.. but i am happy that my friends and family always stay by my side..

I argue with my sister today.. Since my mom left, my sister really took care of me.. She tries to fufill whatever i need.. Even my father too.. Everyday he would at least call me thrice a day to make sure im okay.. Im so touched.. The reason i argued with my sister today is because she keeps mumbling on and on.. A human has a limit on being mumbling but she has been mumbling non-stop for the whole day.. I was in the car wit her when she mumbling, as she keeps on mumbling, i cannot bear it anymore.. I was so pissed of that i hit the car window with my fist.. Ended up, the car window was broken n my hand swollen.. I get scoled by my father.. The is the first time i felt so pissed off as i never hit things with my fist.. My sister was shock n scared seing the changes in me.. Especially when i hit the car window broken.. I do not knw where i hav the courage to hit the window till my hand is swollen.. Perhaps too stress i guess..

My future husbands..

2008-09-23T12:01:00.001-07:00

Which dbsk member are you? Your Result: Xiah Junsu Xiah Junsu? Well, let's see... You have a cute and adorable aura around you that people cant resist. You love cracking jokes and puns on the scene when there is obvious tension in the room. Cheering up is your specialty. You hate it when friends are fighting and tend to cry if they do. You would love to have a positive outlook on the world, because you are somewhat negative. You may seem like you're perfect but your not, just close. And just like junsu, you excell in schoolwork! YOU'RE A XIAH JUNSU!!!
U-know Yuhno
Micky Yoochun
Hero JaeJoong
Max Changmin
Which dbsk member are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Well.. Since im too free this few days.. juz surf up the net and answer this stupid question.. LOL.. Too bored this few days.. Hahaha.. well.. My favourite TVXQ member was Xiah Junsu.. As i was too bored so, i juz answer the stupid question.. As i iknw it wont come true.. LOL.. TVXQ member as my husband? LOL.. Muz be dreaming.. Well, the first 2 question i answer, i got Micky.. Hahaha.. LOL.. I do like Micky, but i like Junsu more.. Hahaah.. Then , the last two question i answer, i got Xiah Junsu.. Hahaha finally.. So stupid.. If really i would be their wife, i guess i would be killed by the Cassie's and the netizens.. Last question was, which TVXQ member i am.. Means which TVXQ member dat i hav similarities.. then I got Junsu again.. LOL.. Guess Junsu wasnt mean to be my husband.. I think Micky is.. hahaha.. sory Guys.. I knw its bored.. Im bored too..

BBQ party + Sunway Lagoon = Sick and body aching

2008-09-20T18:58:00.000-07:00

Ohh my.. It was very fun having BBQ party at Audrey's house.. We had a lot of fun.. Let me tell the summary of our classmate outing.. On wednesday, i take 3.30pm train to meet Beh, Andy, Shan, Jessie, Kaya n Audrey at KL Central cause i supppose to meet them there at 4.30pm. (Train frm Rawang to KL Central took almost 1 hour).. I arrived at 4.45pm and i thought i would be late.. My gudness.. They arrived later than me.. At 5.20pm. Its ok for me cause i use to it to wait for people. Then, we went down to lower level to take bus to Shah Alam, Audrey's house.. It took us almost 1 hour to wait for the bus and plus it was rush hour time.. (people going back home after work).. We squeeze into the bus like a tin of sardines.. Holy crap.. Kaya gets her seats whereas the 6 of us standing. It was nt dat much of people at KL Central, but, when the bus stop at Pasar Seni, my gudness... Only GOD knows how jammed it was in the bus.. The people at Pasar Seni stops, did not even wait for the people to come out and they just rushed in.. Everybody was pushing n squeezing around.. Audrey who is for me known as 'taufu' and fragile, shocked me.. She actually pushed and squeeze to get to behind to find a seat.. It shocked me because she hates being squeeze by people and smell the 'air freshner'.. (people body odour'.. LOL.. In the end, It was Ah Beh, Audrey, Shan and Kaya get seats, while me, Jessie n Andy stands.. I feel pity for Andy cause the location he stands wasnt dat 'strategic' cause he was surounded by 'black foreigners'.. While me n Jessie, we squeeze into the corner where the emergency door located.. Shit!! At there i was being squeeze by a stupid dupid man.. The more i moved in, the more he gets in.. Jessie told me to do the irratating sound to signal the man not to go any closer.. I couldnt do it as i knw the bus is really jammed and crapped with people.. We arrived an hour later.. As soon as we got down, I ask Audrey, 'how do you go on everyday like this? If i were you, i rather stay outside than going on everyday like this..' It was a really tiring journey.. Even so, i still feel happy cause im with my friends..

While we were on our way to Audrey house, we passed by a huge house where there was a guard in the house.. Ah Beh telling me dat was her house, i was freaking shocked to look at the house cause i damn believe it was her house, but in the meantime, i was wondering, does her house has bodyguard? Then oni i suspect they were lying as i see Audrey started to laughed.. Later we did arrived at Audrey 'real house'.. The first thing we did was greet her mom who was busy preparing behind.. And then, we all start the fire as it was already quit late.. The job who was suppose a guy does, was done by me, which is carrying the bricks and start fire. Whereas the job who were suppose girl does such as washing, was done by Ah Beh.. Hahaha.. World really does turn around this time.. Later on, Annrene arrives with her dearest boyfriend Joel and friend, Donovan.. All of us helping hands in order to to get the bbq start immediatly.. At last.. BBQ starts!!! We were having a lot of funs.. Audrey's frens Rachel and Prisca arrived too.. It was fun as we get to knw them.. BBQ ends at 1.00am.. We all help out to cleaned all the things, so dat we can get to sleep earlier cause we hav to wake up at 7.00am the following day.. After bath and all dat, we rest in the room with the air-cond filling the room.. suddenly the aircond stops. We wondered why.. We try to fixed it, but we ended up sweating. So, we had to sleep without air-cond. It was freaking hot that nite.. We were suppose to sleep early, but we cant help ourself frm talking and chatting.. LOL.. We r girls.. Especially after switch off the lights.. Our chatting become more.. At last, everybody fall asleep without knowing..

The following day, I wake at 6.45am.. Thanks to Audrey. Her phone alarm rang and i thought it was 7.00am, plus she wake up and disappeared.. I wake up and i went to Beh rooms to see whether they wake up or not. It seems dat they oready get ready.. I thought i was late, so i went to take my bath and wake Kaya n Annrene up.. When i looked at the clock, it was oni 7.15am.. I wake too early.. After finish, i continue my sleep and suddenly the air-cond functioning.. Holy crap!!! we were freaking hot last nite.. And i ended up sleep oni 2 hours.. Thanks to our unstoppable pillow talk..

We arrive at Sunway bout 10 sumthing.. We went to purchased the ticket and the first thing we played was the spinning cup.. My gudness, luckily i didnt sat at the same cup with Ah Beh.. He spun the cup so fast, until they get dizzy.. I wanted to play the 360 degree turn, but no 1 wants to join me.. A lot of extreme game i didnt get to play.. Oh... By the way, Audrey friend, Prisca, join us later.. We played a lot of game and we even compete.. Most of the time, my partner either Kaya o Prisca.. I found out that Prisca is a very extreme person and loves challenge.. LOL.. I thought im the one who is brave n love extreme, it seems dat she is more extreme than me.. Happy to know her.. After played almost every thing, i think i hav reached my limit of energy.. And oohh.. I stil managed to get spray tattoo.. I was freaking tired.. Everybody seems energetic to hav a walked at Sunway pyramid.. While me, i just wnt 2 find a place to hav my dinner and after dat, went straight bck home.. Beh, Jessie, Shan n Andy went to eat at McDonalds, while me, Prisca, Kaya n Audrey, we went to Sushi Zanmai to eat.. LOL.. We are more at classic sides.. I was damn tired, but looking at the food makes my energy comes back at 10%.. I ate 2 plate of sushi n Ekoden.. Prisca treat us with sashimi.. LOL.. Too bad im not vry good at enjoying sashimi.. Anyway, thanks Prisca!!! After dinner, i wanted to head bck home as i was rely tired at the time.. I reached home at about 11.. As soon as i reached home, coincidencely, my uncle came, and i hav to gav away my room to him and his wife.. I ended up sleep in the living room, on the floor.. The following day, i fall sick and my whole body aching.. It feels like end of the world to me as the pain was unbearable.. I cant sleep at all.. Luckily they hav left today, n i get bck my room and i sleep for almost a day.. This is wat happen when u dnt get enough sleep and dnt get a nice sleep..

BBQ and Sunway Lagoon..

2008-09-17T19:42:00.000-07:00

Yeah.. Goin to Audrey there tonight.. At first i doubt whether i want to go not cause i had a family matter. After my family matter is settle, i finaly can go. Then, i doubt again whether i should go onot.. This time is because i scared i feel isolated from my friend. Its kinda like where evryclazmate are all friend but they were still have their own group. And then Audrey said, u still have me. Well, the words kinda give me a secure feeling about not being isolated. My group only Kaya coming..N probably Annrene too. But Annrene only coming for BBQ. She is not going to Sunway Lagoon. She need to pack up i think. Cause she goin back to Melaka tommorow. Oohh.. I wish i can follow her go Melaka. I miss Aunty Esther and Angel. (Annrene mom and sister).. Sadly Chee Huey cant join us this time.. It would be fun if she is there tonight..

Beh and Andy were already at Audrey house yesterday. Reasons they were there early? They need to help Audrey to push the trollies while shopping for BBQ stuff tonight. Hahaha.. To tell you the truth, Beh and Andy always join us whenever we had a classmate outing.. I dont know wat happen to other classmate.. LOL.. Anyway.. Im sure we gonna have fun tonight.. Regardless anything.. Hahahaha.. H1 hwaiting!!!! DBSK Hwaiting!!!!

Exam finish!!!

2008-09-17T06:46:00.000-07:00

Ooohh.. Finally exam is finish.. But, haiz.. I guess have to resit the subject i take today.. Holy shit!! Hate the subject.. Hopefully dont have to resit.. I'm in rush to graduate on time.. I desperately wanted to graduate with my friend.. And i wanted to take picture with him too.. Who is he? Hehehe.. someone special i guess.. Cant describe more about him.. If you guys knows, i might as well kill you.. Hehehe..

Exam is finish.. What should i do? Hhmm.. Normally after exam, I would follow Annrene go Melaka but not for this semester.. I follow her go Melaka too much until my dad suspect me had a boyfriend there.. LOL.. Btw.. Going to Audrey house tomorrow for bbq party among classmate.. Overnight too.. Cause going to Sunway Lagoon the following day.. I'm so excited.. Cant wait.. This is my classmate 2nd outing after going to zoo few months ago.. Sadly not all classmate will be there tommorow.. Dont understand why they do not want to join us? Is it because we are at the aggresive side? LOL.. Maybe..

Two weeks holiday.. What will i do at home? Online, sleep, eat, wake up and online.. I plan it well dont i? Hahaha.. Going to be a panda when college re-open.. Hahaha.. Btw.. saw this at youtube and find out that my 'husband' Xiah Junsu potential to be a good father.. LOL... hahaha.. Love him so much..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TPBh4mUgnPA

Wuhuu.. Finally i created my own blog.. So hard to find it..

2008-09-15T07:08:00.000-07:00

Huhh.. I feel relief dat finally i can create this blog.. So hard to create man.. Huh.. Well as this is my first time doing this blog.. i guess nt much i hav to say.. Juz finish my toughest subject exam.. hopefuly i can pass.. In rush to graduate.. hehehe.. Well.. I never felt so presurred before.. this is my first time i feel the tense.. Aahh!!! So presure!!