My Everything

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Lost my precious stuff..

Geezz.. Shit... Damn it.. Fuck it.. Darn it.. Those who steals my RM59 Quicksilver slippers, i curse them to have nightmares every night.. Shit.... Why do they wanna steal my slippers?? The slippers is so precious for me.. Its has a lot of memories to me... Goosshh... I hate it.. aarrgghh.. Nothing seems to go right for me this few days..

Its too late....

Gooosshh... One of my ex colleagues is resigning.. So she ask me to apply again for club med.. GOD.. she should have tell me earlier.. But now, everything is too late.. Im going for my interview tomorrow and i at least have to wait a year for that.. Gosshh.. Why dont she tell me earlier??? OOhh.. Im so pissed off.. Gooossshhhh!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted so much to work in club med.. aaaaarrrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 post in a day?? why not??

Gosshh.. i must really felt bored.. i post 2 entry in a day.. Well, actually i am bored.. Im on my maximum level of boredom.. Dont try to piss me off or i might ended up killing someone.. hehe.. Just kidding.. Since coming back from Kuantan, all i have been doing in this one whole week at home, sitting my butt off in front of the computer and sleep.. (redemption for not having enough sleep while working in Club Med).. But i think i have enough sleep.. Basically now my thoughts have been wandering far.. I had no idea what will happen in the future nor I'm doing anything to plan for my future.. I'm just so clueless..

And actually, I've got a job interview coming Tuesday, and although the job is not the job I've dream of, at least i had to give my best.. I do not want to disappoint my family who wanted me to work in the company.. And the contract with the company only takes about a year so i think why not i just give a try?? Perhaps after that i can go back to the job i wanted..

As for now, i really miss all my college mate.. I wonder how are they now?? Its an amazing thing that we still care about each other to think that we havent seen each almost half year..

I am 20 years old now.. As for some other people, perhaps they thought they are still young.. but for me, 20 is like the age i've should have achieved something, but still, im still wandering around looking for a rightful job to me.. What the heck am i waiting for?? But im not the type who waits to get married... Heck!!! I dont even had a boyfriend!!! Am i single? Yes. Am i available? Yes. Am i desperate? ermm.. 50% perhaps.. But for now, i want to concentrate to earn my big bucks.. I wanna get the thing that i can buy with my own money.. hahahahaha...

Till the end of us..

Should i just end it?? Because i dont think it will work.. Although he is special... But i feel a burden..Should i just give him up.. We, who have different mindset, different thoughts and different cultural, could we ended up being together?? He is loveable, he is cute, he is caring and he is charming..But i just felt that something is torn between us.. Should i give up? Or i should fight for this relationship together with him?? Because everything doesnt seems so right...



Should i give him up?? Super Junior CHO KYUHYUN....hahahahaha...........

Doing something beyond my will..

Im going for an interview this Tuesday.. But i not happy with it. It is because, its a job that i dislike.. I am grateful for the person who offers me this job.. And i even feel thankful.. But its just the job is not in my interest.. Its my father wish that i work in the company... The job just doesn't suits my style.. My style if job is freestyle type.. For example, working in club med.. hehehe.. I really miss working in club med.. after all, my contact with the company only for a year.. maybe after that i will apply to club med again.. I want to work on something that i like.. Club Med.. wait for me!!!!!!!!!!

Its just only second day..

Geezz... Its just only second day, but i have missed the people and the lifestyle in club med already.. Goosshh... I truly miss them all... There is one i miss the most.. He is really someone special.. Glad i know him.. I miss the lifestyle too... Every morning woke up at 8am, preparing to go to work at 8.40am then at 9, all the children arrive and parents start to sign them in.. At 9.30am we brought them to the archery field and then the golf, bungee bounce and trapeze.. Everything finish at 11am.. At 11am, either we brought them to the pool or we bring them to a nature adventure.. After that at 12pm, its lunch time.. Its my most favourite time.. After ensuring all the children gets their food, its my time to get my food.. Goosshh.. I really miss the all-you-can-eat buffet.. And my favourite food to eat everyday is 'jab chae' and tempura.. Well, not to miss as well, chinese food.. Thanks to Ah Kang for preparing such a nice chinese food. Hope he succeed to work in Japan.. Well, after lunch finish at 1pm, time to go back to the Kids Club and have a rest before we proceed to the beach at 2pm..

Beach time is about 2pm to 3 pm.. Then, its pool time again.. pool time is about 3 till 3.30.. Then go back to Kids Club to get change, and its snack time... My favourite time as well.. Honey stars plus coco crunch add with chocolate nuttela and some milk.. Voila!!!! Yummy yummy my own recipe.. hahaha.. My colleague Charles, everytime he sees that, he would said " Are you in stress??" Because i ate too much sweet things.. lol... Okay, after that. its family event time.. And everything finishes at 5.30pm.. Thats only the end for the kids club time.. At night we still have to work.. after dinner finishes at 8, its another activities for the mini club time.. And after that, at 9, its time for party.... Or known Crazy Sign in Club Med, where all GO's will started off the dancing, and then dragging all the guest along to dance with us.. After the dance party finish at 9.30pm, its time to invite all guest to go theathre to watch performance.. after performance, its party time.. wow.. Although we seems partying like crazy, but actually is part of our job.. Our job is to create the ambience so that the guest would join together.. Almost everynite we partying until 1, and at 1am we started to set up the theme for tomorow..

I really miss the life in Club Med, although its tiring, but its fun.. I miss the lifestyle of wearing clothes according to themes, the late night partying, dancing crazilly with other colleagues, huh.. Its just a life i cant forget.. I even the miss cranberry soda that i drink almost 8 cups a day.. (no wonder i get cough..) Well, i really miss the life... I hope i can go back to club med..