Tagged

A-Attached or Single? Attached going into single
B-Best Friend? Chee Huey, Kaya, Camin, Rene and Audrey
C-Cake or pie? Cake
D-Day of choice? Friday
E-Essential item? Computer
F-Favorite color? Black and white
G-Gummy bears or Worms? Gummy bears
H-Home - Have no idea
I-Indulgence - Shopping
J-June or July? June
K-Kids? None
L-Life is not complete without - My family
M-Marriage date - Find me a boyfriend first
N-Number of magazine subscriptions? None
O-Orange or apple? Oranges
P-Phobias? insects
Q-Quotes? im crazy
R-Reason to smile? To overcome sadness
S-Season of choice? Winter
T-Tag 5 people – Audrey, KAHS, Wei Yang, Shyan and Adrian
U-Unknown facts about me - I'm sensitive despite the cheerfulness of me
V-Vegetables? Love it
W-Worst habit? i laughed too loud
X-X-ray or Ultrasound? What for???
Y-Your favorite foods? Rice
Z-Zodiac sign - Taurus

100 Truths about me

001. Real name → Carolyn Foong Chee Ak Fredrick
002. Nickname(s)→ Carol, Lyn (its so simple)
003. Zodiac sign → Taurus
005. Male or female → Female duh??
006. Elementary → All Saints Taiping kindergarten
007. Middle School →SRK (P) Treacher Methodist Taiping and SRK Sinaran Budi Rawang
008. High School → SMK Rawang (lame name of a school...)
009. College School → College Tunku Abdul Rahman
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → average
012. Loud or Quiet → loud.. all the time
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Can be both?
015. Health freak → Totally
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → So far no
055. Waiting for → My white horse prince

FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ Yes
059. Want to get married? → then why i want to have kids for?
060. Careers in mind → HoteLIAR

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Both
074. Sensitive or loud→ Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → None

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → neither two coz i dont wear one
081. Ran away from home → Nope
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Nope
083. Killed somebody → Nope
084. Broken someone's heart → hardly find someone to broke their heart
085. Been arrested → Nope
087. Cried when someone died → Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Sometimes
090. Miracles → Yes
091. Love at first sight → Yes
092. Heaven → Yes
093. Santa Claus → Yes
094 Tooth Fairy → no
095. Kiss on the first date→ dont even got my first date

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → ...
099. Do you believe in God → Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 5 people.

Dissapointed

Haiz.. No words to describe my feeling right now.. And i not gonna elaborate more about this.. i just feel so disappointed.. because of this, I lost my mood, my appetite and my smile.. just feel soooooooooo disappointed.... And its gonna takes me a while to recuperate.. And there is only one way to make me recuperate.. Sadness seems to be the hardest words to describe..

There is always sunshine after rain..

My mood is getting better now.. After a few days of depression my mood is getting better thanks to the spring cleaning that me and my dad have done.. Suddenly felt want to clean the whole house.. Its been 2 years since we done a spring cleaning.. After the death of my mom.. So many things we found out during the spring cleaning.. I discovered some of my mom sewing stuff that has been kept for 10 years.. My goodness.. is so antique.. I reminds me of my mom.. I miss her so much.. Unfortunately, none of us can sew better, so dad decided to throw it away.. My heart ache when i saw dad throw the things i kept to remember my mom.. I miss mom so much... i really miss her..

Btw, he called... and that is our conversation:

Him: Hello.. Hey.. sorry i didnt pick up ur calls the last few days...
Me: Its ok..
Him: sorry yah.. I've been really busy.. I didnt even bring my phone to work..
Me: Its ok..
Him: come on.. dont be like this.. i've said sorry..
Me: and i accepted ur apology.. I know u've been busy.. but.. its ok..
Him: ok... i'll call your back later when you got your tempered down...
me: okay... (hung up phone)

Am i too harsh? I mean he's already apologized, but i am being mean to him..

My life sucks...

Never in my life I've felt this great pressure.. My whole mind is blank now.. I really dont know what to do.. I felt so clueless.. Guess im suffering slight depression?? I am jobless right now, and that adds more of my depression.. And he is not picking up any of my calls nor replying my message means its the end of us.. That adding up more of my depression.. Gooshh.... I know i shouldnt have felt this depression, but i cant help it.. I just feel sad.. I even try to eat sweet things to lighten up my mood.. Guess it doesnt help at all.. End of relationship with him is no big deal for me, but hello.. At least call me and give me your reason.. EXPLANATION.. Jesus Christ, what makes me sad is not ending the relationship, its because im desperately looking for job.. I wanna make my own big bucks.. i wanna make my own BIG BUCKS!!!
Money, fortune, please come to me!!!!!! arrgghh..... Im tearing up my heart now..

I'm a total failure..

Well, about the job that i went for interview.. I dont know whether is a yes or no.. They ask me to give it a thought since transportation is my problem.. Goosshh.. Everything just dont goes right for me this week.. If only i know its going to be like that, i would have told my manager that i would extend.. Gooshh.. I just hate life after school... i wanna go to school.. Gooshh... I hate my life.. Its so sucks now.. Where the heck am i going to look for job??? Shit.. Bitch... F**k.. hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Everything

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything