to regret or not to regret??

to regret or not to regret?? Well, it doesnt matter now becoz im already at airport waiting for my flight to kuantan.. So lets say if i am to regret by now also its already too late.. Hehe.. Well, my feelings right now?? Sad and happy.. sad becoz im leaving kl and for not celebrating CNY with family but happy because i will get to meet my fellow friends in Club Med.. And this will be the first time i celebrated it away from my family.. And it is not easy though.. Hope i will have fun in Club Med..

Strangest dream i've ever had..

Really.. It was the strangest dream i ever had.. And i dont know why.. It still giving me a goosebumps till now.. It was around 10AM that i went back to sleep.. As i slept quit late yesterday so of course im gonna be tired.. Lol.. Gooshh.. Later do i realized i start to dream about him.. I dream about him getting married... GOD.. i was so mad.. And yet jealous of course.. In reality we clear things up and remained good friends, but why do i feel like i still has feelings for him?? Ohh.. GOD.. The dream was so true..


I dream about him getting married with a girl with long hair.. Average face.. Tall.. Just like him.. And i was invited to their wedding.. Along with my late mother.. Goosshh.. (Bonus: i dream about him and my late mother..) I was so mad with them but i couldnt do anything.. All i can do is just wish them happiness ever after.. I was invited to their 3 wedding invitation. Lots of things going around before his wedding.. (my dream is crazy..) They even make a recording about their wedding and broadcast it on tv.. (typical ****A country people weddings..) To makes things worse, as i am his friend, he specially booked my room just next to the bride's and groom room.. WTF!!!! Gooshhh.. The dream was so real.. Gooshh... It make me more tired after dreaming it..

But in reality, we are friends... Now.. We clear things up and decided to remained friends.. We are good friend now.. But how come i feel like i still had the feelings for him?? It shouldnt be as now we didnt meet each other for few weeks.. (But im going to meet him soon again..) It was hard at first when we decided to be friends, but later do i realized we are more comfortable in becoming friends than becoming someone special to each other.. We talked more than usual, we are closer than usual.. maybe because the situation is awkward for us.. But anyway, dream is just a dream.. After i woke up, although its still fresh in my mind but i'll try to forget it.. Continuing with my daily life..

Mental Note to myself: Never go back to sleep after 10am..

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Another random yet boring day..

Didnt do anything much after came back from Club Med.. All i do is eat, sleep, online, eat, sleep, online.. Thats what i have been doing for the past 3 weeks at home.. Well, managed to meet some of my friends whom i havent meet for quit sometime.. Kinda miss them.. So bored.. haiz.. Anyway.. Every night been sleeping late at night.. Knowing the next day I had nothing to do and i can sleep the whole day.. Well.. I really do not know what am i gonna do now for my future.. I dont have the intention to continue my exam.. But yet, i dont have a stable job yet.. Im still on 50-50 whether im gonna continue my exam or not.. Haiz.. Im so confuse now.. What am i suppose to do.. I dont know whether i should re-apply job in Club Med or go for other job.. arrgghhh. life is complicated..

To tell you the truth I am going back to work in Club Med on this coming Sunday.. As a part timer... Dont know whether will i re-apply back as a permanent staff.. Gosshh.. Im so confused right now.. haiz.. What should i do with my future??? aaarrgghhh....

Goodbye Club Med Goodbye...

Finally, after of 8 months working in Club Med, now its my turn to say goodbye after watching every GO's going in and out.. Time pass by so fast in Club Med that i didnt realize i've been working there for 8 months.. And i really love Club Med.. I love the people there, i love the job there and so much thing that i love is from there.. Most important of all.. The one i cherish the most.. My friends and my oppa's.. So many things happen in the past 8 months and of course i cant describe everything precisely.. Will just talk about the thing that in my mind the most.. starting off with my friends.. My dearest roommate.. Eng Eng.. We've been staying together for the past 6 months.. She is my best friend, best roomies and best sister.. I love her so much that i did not want anything to happen to her.. Gosshh.. Love Eng Eng..

Next up, Sora.. My Korean best buddies.. Love her so much... a day before my departure, we didnt sleep the whole just because she wants to accompany me for a final moment.. Gooshhh.. I really love her.. Love everybody... Im gonna miss them alot.. Well, Club Med is a place that really gives you a good experience in work wise.. I love working there.. My communication skills are developed, improved and wisely used.. hehehe.. love working for club med..

in Club Med as well, i make alot of friends from diffrent countries.. Not to mention, my mini club team.. my best working colleagues ever.. Love my mini club team..

There are so many things to say out in my whole period of working in Club Med.. How i meet new friends as well.. Well, there is no need for me lingering so long as i will be back to work in club med as part timer.. Will be back soon...

A letter from someone whom i cherish..

" Carol.


This is 오빠. I was very surprised when i heard that you are leaving soon. And now is the time that we have to say goodbye. I so much appreciate you for your kindness , when i just arrived here, you were one of the G.O who so warmly welcome me. Although the time we know each other is not that long, but you were my closest friend here. I'll never forget the time we shared each other. Hope to see you soon in here and i believe that you will come back and smile and call me 오빠.. I'll wait for you. Always be strong and bright like now you are. You are the best G.O for me!!


-Chuck-
2010


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